It’s been a few days since I blogged last time. Yes, I have had the blog constantly on my mind: “I must blog! I must do that, do this, write that, write this.” But honestly, I haven’t had the energy.

Lately my energy has been declining, so I think my iron in my blood is low again, so I need another round of infusion.

I fall asleep everywhere, and I mean everywhere, such as in school, on the sofa, on chairs, etc. It’s embarrassing, and it makes me mad. The last time I had this problem was in like 2021 or something. 

I haven’t been able to go to school and participate well, and that stresses me out. The assignments are piling up, and I have like no energy to sit in front of the computer, let alone to study. It’s frustrating to be honest.

Even though I sleep (as much as possible at night when the headache/migraine is calm), I still go back to bed after I have my son sent off to school, or I fall asleep later in the evening.

Yes, I have tried to get a doctor’s appointment to get blood samples taken for iron but also for my pancreas and blood sugar, but no success. No one wants to help me. So that is frustrating me as well.

Ok, enough about negativity– yes I feel it became a lot of negativity but this has been bothering me so much lately.

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Last week I went to the dentist and finally picked up my new mouth guard even though I was terrified of using one. Why? I had one when I was 15/16 and slept with it for one night, and the day after I woke up completely deaf in my right ear. It took 2 of my siblings plus my mom using forks to get that mouth guard off my teeth, and one of my siblings screamed right in my ear, and I couldn’t hear anything.

That’s why I am terrified, but to my surprise, I actually slept with it—the night after. I used it a lot during the day and evening to get used to it and also to see if my hearing gets affected again. NOPE! Hallelujah!

Tonight (Tuesday, 11th November) will be the 5th night I have it on when I’m sleeping. Sure, let me be honest, I wake up every morning still terrified about my hearing but slowly getting used to wearing it.

Does it give me ache in jaws and head? Yes. Massively.

Is it worth it? Hopefully.

I got this for two/three reasons. 1. I grind my teeth when I’m sleeping, apparently. I don’t know. 2. To help relax my jaw muscles 3. To help with my headaches/migraines. So far? No clue if it works. I haven’t noticed a difference, but I’m still going to use it.

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Birthday Party!

E was invited to his very first birthday party and I couldn’t be happier. Ofcourse I was there as well to help if needed (or support my son in meltdowns etc) but it all went so good. I actually cried of happiness!

At first I was (of course. As an autism mother you are always on your toes) nervous but also excited! My baby is going on his first birthday party.

I can honestly say, I am super proud of E. No meltdowns. No scream. Curious and didn’t want to listen—yeah, of course.  New place, new people—new impressions.