Ofcourse health, relationships, friends and love is on my visionboard as well! I can’t wait to see what 2025 has for me!.
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Are they really allowed to do this?
New week. New possibilities. New steps forward.
This weekend havent been si good to me. Removing more toxicness and negativity out of my life has really taken a toll on my mental health but hey, it might be worth it in the end? I don’t know.
Monday, November 4th, 2024. School. New classmates. Laughed at and massive feeling of disappointment.
Today started good in school but ended up me faking becoming sick so I could leave. First time I did this on this school. Why? A staff who helps students made fun of me and what I said. I got so mad I almost was about to explode but managed myself to stay calm and blame my migraine (I had migraine but is blamed that it became worse). I felt so disgusted, so disappointed, upset and really mad. I left the school so fast so I could cool off a bit away outside.
this happened infront of the two new classmates that started today!
We are grown people and they did this? What?! I can not believe it. and tomorrow it is school again.. hopefully i won’t see this person because iam not up for a confrontation to be honest.. not right now.
Are they staff who works with students (not a teacher) allowed to degrade a student like this? I think it calls degrade. I can be wrong, if so I apologize but I hope you get what I mean.
●●● Anyway, little rant about school today..
Tomorrow it’s Tuesday which means, school at the afternoon. Will probably bring my cameras with me so I can start learn the settings, tips and tricks again. Go for a walk and just be alone to breathe.
● This weekend havent been so good to me. Personally and mentally. Personally I can not talk about here but let me just say, that I have been hurt before by close people but this is in top 3 of the things the person has ever said to me. And that took a massive toll on my mental health. I cried and was hysterical because I couldn’t believe my eyes (the person wrote this so I read, not heard it) and wow I have been a mess but i take it as a sign ~ if that’s how the person feel, they are not meant to be in mine nor my son’s life . it’s that simple.
● My sister and her daughter had to go to an other city by helicopter last night. I can not write details but let me just say that iam terrified and scared. Worried and I don’t know all the emotions. My baby niece A has severe epilepsy and it has become worse. She’s 4 years old!
● I have made a Facebook group (yesterday) if you would like to join to see my artworks. My photographies. I’m gonna expand my equipment with time and hopefully be able to take better pictures 🥰 can’t wait!
7 years ago ..
Today is not a regular day because it is my child’s birthday! HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY!
Seven years ago I became a mom. Despite what doctors told me. They have always told me to give up on my biggest dream to become a mother. It would never happen due to my PCOS.
and seven years ago i gave birth to my beautiful baby boy. My little handsome man. My little man.
my angel. the love of my life. I can’t believe that I got the gift and blessing to become your mother.
a traumatic pregnancy and a more traumatic experience when giving birth, i will forever be thankful for what I, as a person and my mentally was able to do.
life sure tests us with your diagnosis but man I grow as a mother and as a person everyday thanks to you my love.
Happy Birthday E 🎂 🥳🎉
5 things I am grateful for
5 things I am grateful for is kinda hard to think out because I am grateful for so many things. All from my son, to my education, to my interests but I’ll try write five things and maybe in future I can write more. Lol!
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Five things I am grateful for
● My son & family
I will forever be thankful / grateful for my son who’s a miracle. Growing up the doctors told me to give up my dream (to become a mother) because it would never happen because I’ve PCOS. Yet here I am. A mother for soon seven years. I’m thankful that I have made my own family. A lifepartner and son. My family.
● Education
Growing up I had hard time in school – bullying. No help from teachers or what so ever. But today I have an education – nurse assistant and I am currently studying my old grades up to I can become a preschool teacher. The nurseasssitant education was actually a promise to my mother before I died. She wanted my and my siblings to become a nurse so we would help people more than we did.
● Finding myself
I’m still working on myself and forever will but lately I have found myself a little bit. I’ve managed to get my real style out in public and not being hiding behind other clothes. I dyed my hair neon red again. I have managed to find focus and things to make myself feel better.
● Emma Santorini blog
I’m actually very very grateful for this blog. Even thought I haven’t been updating so much lately (I have posted like 80 posts since august). I’m grateful because I write my thoughts out. Write my life like a journal. Share photographs I’ve taken, ideas, and share my opinions of things.
● YOU!
I’m so grateful for you! Why? Because you are you! Never change for anyone. Never change yourself. I’m grateful because you are here. Life is hard but I’m here to help if you need someone to talk.
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What are you grateful for?
What are some things that make you smile?
What are some things that make you smile? that is actually one hard question. There is so many things but my absolute number one thing that makes me smile is my son.
Watching my boy growing up. See how proud he is when he manage to say words that we would understand. How he manage to have cracked the code for talking and saying few words and tries to say full sentences.
What make me smile is watching my son grow up and become independent, which he already is now but not on everything but mostly everything.
My son has autism. To be correct, he has autism 3 (the hardest autism) and is non verbal (can’t talk like us) so you can all understand my smiles and my happiness whenever E has learned to say a new word.
He tries really hard and he has improved so so much. He say or try to say words but he also sign them. If we do not understand him, we guess til he shows us that it was correct. Or if he is impatient he will just grab our hand and show us.
so this is one thing that will forever make me smile.. My beloved son 💕
A fun way for a child to entertain themselves
I have found a fun way for my son to entertain himself while I do the laundry. Practice writing numbers and letters. Yes it is the calender but he writes on months that has passed already. Not the current month or months that is coming up. I am so proud of him for how much he has developed since he started the school he attends now. When he was in preschool, they isolated him from other children so he never learned how to be a friend, wait for his turn etc. He never learned how to write etc so I stepped up and taught him. So now since he started in school he has developed so much – he say the letters and he counts to 29 but struggle saying 30. It has happened so fast but I am so proud and happy. In school they are practicing writing the letters but he already knew them. Also counting the numbers is something he has been taught at home so he were impressing the teachers at school when he counted so they decide to keep teach him more numbers so they and we are working on that.
E is not attending a regular school. He is attending a special need school because he has autism but I am forever thankful for the teachers and how much they have taught him on one year. He is in second grade right now and I can’t believe that he is that big!
So a simple way to entertain a child while doing laundry(or any other activity) so they learn numbers and letters -> Let them write in a calender with passed months! My son loves it and said over and over again (he did four months) “one more!”. He wanted to write them all!
We are home!!
Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.
When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.
Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.
I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.
This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.
Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰
From the bottom of my heart | Thankful and very grateful
oh my god. I totally forgot to write “Happy 1 month anniversary ” to my blog yesterday. I have been blogging for 32 days now and with this post, I have uploaded 66 posts. That’s crazy!
I just want to say Thank you everyone! For all the love, follow, comments and likes. The communication with me and everything. Thank you for visiting my little blog and share so much positive feedback even though my blog is all over different kind of niches.
Thank you everyone for this opportunity and this month. I am so glad I decided to start blogging again. I hope you all continue showing me all this love 🥰
Saturday Gallery | Quality time, road trip – nature & the sea
it was a too gorgeous day to not go on a little roadtrip the three of us. E, my husband and I. We had no destination in mind. We just drove. Enjoying the nature, the sun and having quality time with the family.
It all started when M came home from work. Tired as he was he always make sure E is happy. After being home for two hours, laughed and had fun with E. I suggested that we could go on a car ride. When I was in Norway, my husband and E went out every weekend on car rides and we have it as well when M is home.
So we went out. E as happy as he could be. Just the three of us. It was a perfect moment.
We actually drove to a resort by the sea. My husband knows I love the sea and took me to the sea. Unfortunately I couldn’t get out of the car as much as I wanted but it’s ok. All the photos are taking through carwindow.
The car ride started that M needed to go to the pharmacy. He was there and came out with an ice cream for E. The happiness of E! And after that we just drove and drove. Two hours in a car. Iam actually surprised that E was so calm (autism etc) and he was so happy. And I was happy. My family, having a quality time. And ofcourse, I got to see the sea!
It is something special with the sea. I feel calm next to it. The view. The sounds. The smells. It calms my soul I wish I was able to go to the sea daily. I can during weekdays but it’s too crowded and it’s not a .. sea sea view you know.
I might sound weird but I feel as most “home” when I’m next to water. Lake, river or the Sea. I’m drawn to the water. Always have. My mom told me when I was younger (I spoke to her about the water etc before she passed) I always wanted to be in water. When I was in it, it was very difficult to get me out of it. “You were like a fish in the water” she said. I have always had a love for the water. not the drinking water or bottle waters but you know. Haha!
Why is it that iam so drawn to waters ? I love it, I can swim for hours. But I have a phobia for deep waters. If I can’t feel the bottom or see my feets when I’m in the water I get panic.
oops got out of hand here with the post but it is fine. I just wanted to show some pictures (I will post them better later) and talk about our family roadtrip.
I hope you all have a beautiful saturday! I’m actually off to bed. Goodnight & thank you everyone for all the visits, like, comments and just sharing love 🥰
Anger issues, autism and smart tabs
Good morning from the household Santorinis! I hope you all are doing good! I’m just sitting here, watching my son sit on the floor switching between watching Daniel Tiger, busses on youtube and listen to his favorite Punjabi song. E is half punjab so for me it doesn’t matter 🥰 It’s so cute when he tries to sing along to the song. I sent video to his father last night of E trying to sing along so he called me and had that broken voice (when you are happy crying) and I said that E is showing more interest of his culture. So here we go when my husband comes home! Exciting!
My husband is a Sikh but we have together agreed to raise E neutral so he can when he is older decide if he wants to be a Sikh, Muslim, Christian or anything he wants. Sometimes we have culture crash between husband and I but we work it out.
Happy child = happy mother.
E has his tab for the first time in 4 months. Before he had the tab all the time(weekends) til he developed anger issues when giving it back for bedtime so me and my husband agreed to remove the tab from him for a while and today I decided to try see how it works. Wish me luck.
we did not punish him for his anger issues. We were consulting with cps (you get automatically involved with them when your child get a diagnosis) and the special hospital (for autism etc) and we all agreed on removing the tab for a while. We have been talking, explaining, used sign languages and pictures to explain why he got mad, what happened to him etc. Unfortunately the school doesn’t listen to what we all have been telling him so they have allowed him using theirs etc but at home it has been fine. So hopefully this will go fine as well.
How is your Sunday?