Sometimes I wonder what kind of class I’m studying.. Sockpuppets??
We had a theme.. Animals and staff in preschool. Make sockpuppets to have a theater to solve conflicts.. I didn’t want to make an adult so I made a weird looking bat. To my defense, the scissors to cut with was awful. If I had my tools that I had at home, it would be alot prettier. Lol. Now it looks.. I don’t know.. But it looks funny!
Sadly my teacher told me to do a sockpuppet you can use it to “talk”.. No. Those gives me creeps. Lol! Luckily, I can do what I want and no need to do anything else. Lol when it comes to crafting will mean.
Hi hello my beautiful souls! My life has been insanely dumb towards me there for I have been quiet. I actually made a recap post yesterday but didn’t post it due to me writing it on my way to school and I actually got “car sick” lol. Bus sick maybe is a better term. I will post it later though.
BUT HOW ARE YOU!? Suck a long time ago (January 22nd I think)
I apologize for my absence. Long story short (longer in an other post) mental health, new medicine, stopped instantly with my old medicine with out “stepping out” on it and a lot more.
Here I am though! Not mentally stable yet but slowly working towards it! One step at the time!
The focus, the stress and the chaos has been real! So glad it’s over for a little bit now.
Hello, my beautiful people! I apologize for not blogging this year (yet), but I have been stressed like a maniac!
Remember when I told you guys that my mental health isn’t so good and that it has been declining? Still low at the moment, but between Christmas and this last Saturday (January 3rd) I have been maniacally stressing through assignments, sending them in, correcting them, chatting with teachers about grades, school, etc. Last night I made, hopefully, the last piece for this semester.
Grades will be decided on January 8, and my next semester starts on January 12th, so I am back to school soon! Crazy!
Let’s appriciate the fact that I have gotten some energy back so I could do some makeup again 🙌🏻
I know that one course with the awful teacher who name-called me and disrespected me a lot this semester is done 🙌🏻 I passed it! Thank God.
Long story short, I passed Kost & Hälsa (Food & Health). I don’t know about the rest, but I had 50 assignments to send in before January 1st. Due to my mental health, I couldn’t make them earlier, but in one week, I made them all. The focus, the discipline, and the live chats I was on (TikTok), talking with friends, made me continue. I finished them! Woho!
So for this semester, I made a promise to myself to never let this happen again! So pray for me and my mental health.
Two more semesters and I a m d o n e finally! I have also made a decision to take a break from school (I have been studying nonstop for ten years) to focus on myself and to work.
So yeah, that has been my reality for the past… weeks? But here I am.
the hustle. the stress. the panic. the warnings. It made my head go loco.
But guess who managed to fix it? I DID!!!! I got a warning from my teacher that I was about to fail some classes, and this is the last week I have to do the last of the assignments. I have been sitting for several days for HOURS and just worked my butt off and sent them in. I now “only” have five left plus a presentation on Monday, and after that I am done for this first semester!
So I am extremely happy and actually surprised, plus in shock of myself. One week and I have sent in… I don’t know how many assignments. Is that my ADHD working? Better under pressure? I have no idea, but I can honestly say—next semester and the last one, I do NOT want to do this again!
So because of this, my head is now all loco! Hopefully I can take a small break this weekend and get some rest for my head but if I know myself.. I won’t.
This year my mental health has really declined so much, but I’m hopeful that next year will be a better year. I started with a new medicine a week ago for my ADHD (I requested it myself), and it has actually helped me get a bit more focus. Sure, I’m still tired, so I also got new sleeping pills that knock me completely out. So I haven’t taken them every day—two pills since last week. I will only take it when E is not home and I have nothing important the day after. Mama needs her sleep! That’s why I’m hopeful! Hopefully it will help me get better.
I have even started to do some makeup which has been superloooong time ago. Last Monday (15th) I had red eyelook and visited my last internship location before school. Let me tell you guys, the look on my kids / students. Oh my. They complimented me so much and that actually made me happy so I have been using makeup twice this week.
So I am a bit hopeful about 2026. I’m working hard to become myself. The bubbly, happy, laughing, goofy Emma.
Thank you everyone for reading. 🤍 As you know, my head is all messed up now, so I apologize that I haven’t answered any comments yet. I will when my head allows me. Even writing this post takes energy. Plus I have been at an education presentation today, and I actually fell asleep for a few seconds, so today is a tired day for me.
Two things in this post. Please answer the list part. If you can ofcourse.
Sometimes it’s all listening and no fun, but also sometimes we have fun. Today was one of those days!
Hello, my loves! I hope you all are doing good today!
Today i have actually been the whole day in school except for the last hour because I had to leave earlier so I could catch the bus so I could get my son in time (problems with the principals at the extra after-school place)
Today in school we had fun project which was to make a presentation where we had in our minds that we are teachers and worked with kids in preschool / day care. Everyone did good and I jumped in with my presentation with other kind of songs that the teacher gave links to.
We had to think about the children with special needs, how we could / would adapt us to them so they could participate as well. Well with everyone, not only special need kids.
We had to include movements, play, and all that stuff. We also had to think of any aids (that sounds so weird) so everyone saw the structure of the activity, etc.
In Sweden (I don’t know how preschool and schools work in other countries), they use visual support to show what will happen, so everyone included that! We also had to keep in mind the sign support.
So what did I do? Well, my son is always listening to songs on YouTube where the singers do signs when singing—not like sign language but using their body and hands to reinforce words they sing. I hope you all understand what I mean.
Anyway, I picked out three songs from that singer/group, and it was so fun. Everyone (almost) participated in the signs and songs. Some didn’t.
After everyone had their presentation of their projects (some worked in groups, and some did the project individually—I did it alone), we continued to listen to children’s music—which you can see in the pictures.
I have started a diet and I was wondering if someone has done the same or maybe a similar or something else.
I have started with the 16:8 diet, and I just started it last Sunday (26th of October 2025), and so far it goes well, but I’m worried. I have googled and checked if it’s ok to do this diet when having type 2 diabetes, which I have, and it says it’s ok. I’m wondering and have questions about it, but no, I can’t contact a doctor about it. I’m still waiting on them to contact me about anotherthing but also about taking blood samples—anyway, I am so confused. What is ok, and what is not ok? What can I eat? What can I drink? How will my blood sugar react and act? Like I said, I have googled around and checked official websites for healthcare, etc., in Sweden, but still, so many questions.
Sometimes i don’t feel motivated yet I try but can not focus. Today is one of those days.
Goodmorning my beautiful pumpkins. I hope you all are doing good and is having a beautiful day.
I’m currently in school, and we still have class. Now we only work on our assignments, but I cannot focus. I have sent in two assignments, though, but when it came to the third, I lost concentration and focus. I started to write it and have answered some, but now I’m just sitting.
It’s still morning/forenoon (?) here in Sweden, and I can honestly say, today is one of those days where I just want to be home and rest.
Special education 9am – 12pm ●● School Social Work 1pm – 4pm
Hopefully my energy and concentration will come back. The energy when I entered the classroom was crazy; I was listening to AronChupa—I’m an Albatrauz, which is a very catchy song with a lot of energy. So some of the classmates laughed and some danced along when they heard which song it was—maybe I should start bringing speakers? so we all can dance and get more energy? Nah, I would probably get kicked out of school if I did that. lol!
What have I learned so far? Well honestly, nothing because what the assignments are about, I already know so nothing new.
Do you have any crazy moments that have happened to you? I have many moments.
I did something I wasn’t allowed to do, but I just had to. I sneaked to take a photo of my shoes after some children had fun and sneaked to add the magnetic letters on my shoes.
What they thought was that I didn’t feel anything, but what they didn’t know was that I felt and knew they were doing it but played along.
I know I broke one rule, but I took this picture way, way, waaaay away from any children, so I was still thinking of where to take it. Also made sure no names were shown or pictures of the children.
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Hello, my beautiful pumpkins! Yes, I can officially call you all my pumpkins because now it’s HALLOWEEN SEASON! Woho!
Today I had my third day at my internship (3 of 5), and no more for this week. The start of the day was chaotic! Oh my god! It started with the alarms on my phone not going off, and I woke up at 06:54am… my bus left at 07:10am, so you all can imagine the stress! But I managed to get myself out to the bus stop. Here comes another thing that made the day more chaotic: the bus was super late! Oh my god. So I messaged the preschool I’m having the internship at, explaining, and it was okay for them, but I apologized!
I do not want to come more late than I already do (with agreement with my supervisor) due to my son and his taxi to school.
I basically ran to the preschool, so I tried to get in closer “time” to when I normally am there. I managed... by five minutes after my normal time. Oh my. It was insane!
My supervisor was home today (reason no need to be added here), so I was with two other teachers, and it was good. It was really good. to see how they worked and their routines!
Today, on my third day,I have been doing bracelets and necklaces made of plastic beads that children in preschool use and make jewelry from. Super cute. ● I have been pretty much all day sitting at a table with some children and made bead jewelry and bead plates. ● One child and I wanted to do a Halloween pumpkin, but they didn’t have a printed-out picture, so I used my phone to find one for inspiration, etc., until one of my supervisors today was available. I asked for their tab and explained. ● I have also been reading books for the kids (nerve-wracking!), and they liked it! Woho! ● We also went to another part of the preschool (they have three departments, or whatever you want to call it) with some children so they/we could play with big blue blocks, and oh boy, how much fun we had!
This was pretty much my day (more happened but can not write about that) and I am happy. I was able to help children (without my supervisors) with getting dressed, to help with food etc.
So now I only have two more days here at the preschool, and I’m honestly really sad about that. The children are wonderful, and the staff is amazing! I hope they all see how much I like it here and how much I try.
Next week, I’m back to school but also have two more days of the internship.
I know I didn’t blog yesterday. I am so sorry! It was chaotic at home, but today I will blog.
Hi, hello, my beautiful people! I hope everything to fine with you all!
I have just come home from school (well, kind of; an hour ago), so I’m currently in the bath writing this.
Today in school, the classmates, two teachers, and I have been to the forest. Just because we are studying to be the pre-step preschool teacher, we had to go to the forest today. Just because the teachers go to the forest with children sometimes.
What did we do? We went on a walk and answered questions. Well, you talked with your mate you were paired with about them. Some questions were kind of weird, and I and AK (the classmate) pretty much didn’t know what to answer on some of them. One question was, “Have you been dead and had experience? What do you remember?” Like, how would I know that?
Such a weird question. Oh well, after that walk, the teachers spoke about Buddhism and how they do mandalas, blow them out after prayers, etc. So we had a mission to make our mandalas.Odd, but we did it. I took pictures, but I don’t think people want me to share that, but it’s all good.
After that we had a bit of lunch and talked, and I and S joked with one of our teachers (L). She drank water out of a syrup bottle, and I told S earlier for fun, “She drinks out of a syrup bottle. I bet it’s white syrup,” and I was right! Crazy!
Anyway, the jokes we did with the teacher (she joined in on the jokes) and said that we think it’s something else (vodka), and L laughed and said yes. So we continued and said it was mixed with some water so she wouldn’t get exposed. We all laughed.
So me and S went on with the bottle and L told us some funny stories etc. It was actually a fun moment in the forest (even though I complained a lot! Haha! I dislike being in the forest due to all the bugs etc)
After lunch we had an other activity (we did four activities in total during this class) and that was to paint, either something with forest related or feelings. I tried to make a sunset but that one failed extremely hard. I’m better to paint with pens than watercolors.
Fun part… or maybe not so funny, but S and AK were fine with it. I did some color splatter on my painting, and it accidentally came on AK’s bag and S’s shoes. I apologized so much when we saw it. I was so embarrassed. I even splattered paint on myself, my bag and the bench we sat on. Atleast I participated. Lol!
I had already told my teachers and classmates that I’m a photographer and a blogger, so they had to be prepared that I would take photos. I did. A few. Lol.
I’m not sharing all, just some. Click on the picture to see bigger/full size.
About my fingers (I will explain better in another post): my son has pulled my fingers so much when wanting to show me things or get me to follow him, so I have started to get problems with my fingers. Therefore, the sports tape on them keeps them “straight” and helps with the pain.
The bag in the last picture actually has a text on it, but I removed it due to it not being a kind text. No, I don’t have the text out towards people when I walk with it.
Yes, I have permission to share pictures of my classmates when we had the painting activity. I asked and told them I would cover their faces. They were okay with that except one student. which I respect, so she’s not in any pictures.
I have new followers and new readers – HI, HELLO AND WELCOME! I hope you enjoy my little corner here on the internet.
I thought I should do a new small introduction of myself. Maybe you wanna tell me a little bit about yourself? Would love to know 🤗🩷
I’m excited to share a fresh introduction about myself. I’m someone who enjoys embracing new experiences and learning every day. I find joy in growth and discovery.
This new chapter is all about being authentic, open, and ready to make meaningful connections.
(I dont have other pictures right now so I use these for now)
Me, myself and my life
Hello! My name is Emma and my blog is called Emma Santorini. Santorini is not my real last name but I took it into my name here on the blog due to Santorini, Greece has been a dream location of mine to visit and I just love the name “Santorini”. anyway lets continue…
I am a woman born 1990 (woop sweet 90s!) and I am from and live in Sweden. I am overweight due to a diagnosis I have called PCOS. I have weight almost 200kg but have struggled and fought to lose a lot of weight. My journey is not over yet. You will also be able to follow my weightloss journey here in the blog.
I’m also a mother to a sweet little man (born 2017) who has autism level 3 and is non verbal.
I am nurse assistant but I am currently studying (swedish;) Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning (caretaker for children with specializing npf sorta explanation). Which means I will be able to help/teach/ be assistant to children or adults with special needs in school etc. My goal is to become a preschool teacher and work with special need kids (autism, down syndrome etc).
My intrests is (except my family) is beauty, photography, learning new things, music and laugh.
I dislike; horses (scary for me), clowns, bridges, small spaces and deep oceans (even though i love ocean/the sea)
I like; Pepsi max, photo, travel, metal music, write lyrics, chill, hang out with friends, doing makeup and alot more.
My style, personality and the whole shebang
My style is kinda odd. Normally I have neon red hair with a lot of makeup. My fashion style is a little bit mix of goth and alternative. Meaning, everything i wear is black and has attitude. Lol!
What is the blog about?
My blog is a lifestyle blogger with a mix of photography, mental health, daily life, travel and family.
I will also write about topics I think is important to talk about such as mental health, depression, bullying etc.
I want to help people, connect with everyone no matter if you have a blog or not. Special niches, intrests etc. I love connecting with people.
Photographer
I am a hobby / amateur photographer. My thing in photography is landscape, travel, macro, windows and details. Yes you read right.. windows. I discovered that winter 2024 and I had to look up the law in Sweden when it comes to that > read my post about the terrifying interaction I had and why I looked up the laws < taking pictures of people’s windows.
I also take photos of food. Yes you read that right as well. If I try something new, or hanging out with my friends etc. Always snapping pictures of the food so be prepared for food pictures as well.
I upload a lot of pictures in my blog. Both pictures from my cameras Canon 450D (my companion in crime) and Canon R10 but also with my phone (depends which one i have) thats currently Samsung s23 Ultra.
I edit my pictures on my phone (yes my laptop is too weak to handle photo editing program) and they always look sharp but unfortunately in the blog…a whole different story.
Education (Nurse Assistant)
I studied to become a nurse assistant back in August 2022 to December 2023. January 2024 I started to study my grades up and have been doing that since that time. In August 2025 I’m gonna start study Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning (swedish) and I have mixed feelings.
Nurse assistant education was actually a promise I made with my mom before she passed. It was her dream for to become a N.A. I love helping people and elderly people. Being there when they need help, their extended arm when needed etc. But after been working at the hospital, different senior homes (this was also before I had my education that I worked on S.H) and what I saw plus experience among the workers… it made me quit fast. I couldn’t stand for how they worked and everything.
Complains to the boss and the city halls about how it was didnt help so I quit.
Picture of me when I worked at a senior home.
when i worked at the hospital and lost -40kg on 3 months. How? I walked 250km per day (not in one walk. several walks per day)
Worth knowing about me and the blog
I am self-taught on the language english. I know my grammar and some spelling will be off and wrong. I apologize for that now and in advance.
I have ADHD so my posts can sometimes be all over.
I struggle with bad mental health that iam working on to get out. I have been in dark places but I am in much better place now and it gives me motivation to continue.
My blog is raw (I am honest about things and stuff) and will not hide stuff. The blog is like my diary. Where I can write my thoughts feelings- mourn the loss of my parents- personal struggles- positivity to everyone and what happen in my life.
Everything is not always positive and sometimes I will be off from the blog and that will due to the fact that it is a lot going on in my head. But I will try to stay active.
As a small part of a family blogger I will also share posts about my son- what he has done, school, activities, etc
Future plans
I have a lot of future plans, both when it comes to my life but also with the blog.
I will travel and is actually currently planning of going to either Santorini or Mykonos in Greece or Milan in Italy. I haven’t decided yet. I want to “finish” one country at the time but also explore other places.
I want be able to inspire people somehow.
I want to expand my knowledge of things like in photography, languages etc
(ridiculous plan now) I want to be published as a photographer with my picture somewhere. That would be so amazing!
BECOME MYSELF! Yes my absolute future plans im gonna work hard on is to become myself again. Happy, bubbly, laughing Emma. and ofcourse have my neon red hair again.
I guess that summons most of it about me and this introduction.
Remember to follow me and my blog. You can click subscribe at the bottom right (on phone) or you can subscribe with your email adress (I wont be able to see that one so dont worry).
one step closer to my new career. I’m excited but terrified on the same time.
After 11th August it will come up school posts. My daily life, lifestyle. I hope you all are excited and ok with following my journey to become a preschool teacher with specialized for diagnosis.
They arrived with Early Bird which means they come really fast in the mail. To my surprise, the books came within two days. That’s crazy fast!
I got a notification on my phone that it was delivered and my heart took an extra skip. Now it feels kinda official that I will be one step closer.
I am scared though. Will I be able to manage to understand the academic words? Sure it’s not as hard as University level of my future school but after been scanning /looking through them fast, my brain stopped working.
I will have more courses during this education but these are the first three books I’ll use for the first semester. According to the schedule, there will be two more different classes per week but no books to them? I am so confused about that.
As you all can read, I have mixed feelings about this career choice. I really want this but I am terrified… of failing, of the school, of the classmates, teachers etc. How will it go? So many thoughts, feelings etc that I need to sort out and try find the motivation and the encouragement that I’m getting closer to the job I really want.
Hello my loves! today has been a hectic day on the blog and real life. It just occurred to me that I start in school in 1O days! What!?
This time I am actually super nervous and scared. Just like when I did my nurse assistant education. This education is at the same school that I hate and where I did the N A E. My former high-school. I have so many bad bad memories from there.
I’m nervous due to new class, new teachers and my size in a school with 3K kids. Yes iam preparing mentally for bullying I just have to get used to it. Hard, yes but I must.
School supplies I need to buy; There is alot! Notebooks, pencils, rubbers, books, etc. Ohmy. Books is ordered for this semester though. But not for the other two but one step at the time.
I have totally forgotten what is needed when studying! Except when I did math, but now iam going back to a big school . Which bag? backpack? hand bag? shoulder bag? Style? dye my hair before that? makeup? Entry access card?
So much to think off! For fun I checked on Shein (no im not ordering there, just browsing to get ideas of what I need to buy) and I found a cute pencil case, bags etc but we all know how Shein is. I used to love them but not now after truth has come out.
What education am I doing this time? This time I am not gonna study so my grades gets better. I’m actually gonna study so I take one step closer to the education preschool teacher. I dont really know how to translate the education from Swedish to english other then I use google translator and that translation sounded so weird.. but (according to Google translator) Childcare training with focus on disabilities. .. sounds so weird. On swedish it’s Barnskötare med specialisering funktionsnedsättning.
When I’m done with this education I can work in preschool with special need kids. Student assistant to someone who needs extra help etc. I am so excited about that part.
How did I come up with this idea to become this? Well, I love teaching stuff. I hate standing infront of a whole class though but teaching one on one is no problem. Also I get a chance to learn more about my son’s diagnosis, what to do, how to communicate etc. So its a winwin for me.
Why the career change? honestly, the N.A.E was a promise to my mother before she passed. I have always struggled with what I actually wanted to work with in life. Even though I love taking care of elderly people, I have seen so much that has made me change my mind. It has given me some sort of trauma (not the elderly but the staff and no matter how much you tell the boss, nothing happens) so I decided to stop work at the hospital, senior homes etc.
With this, I can actually help and teach children. Be their helping hand on the same time as I get to learn more professionally about diagnoses etc.
Excited, nervous, terrified and happy. Mixed feelings about this but I think its because the education is held at my former high school.
Hopefully these feelings and thoughts will pass as soon as I start in school and gotten to know the people.
