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I need to stop with positivity

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Why is life so unfair?

Today I left school crying. Tears falling down my cheeks like Niagara Falls. I’m broken. Heartbroken. When finally something good happens in my life, its always something that will go wrong.

Seven months left. That is all. Seven months and I would be done with my education.  Unfortunately it ended today. Why? Because of the internship I was supposed to have in two weeks.

Let me take it from start;  I have been in contact with my supervisor ONCE (per email. One answer from her)  and I got the schedule for my times at the internship which I had to message back, explaining about E, his autism diagnosis,  school situation etc with him. I thought we would be able to work things out.. Like it has been done on all other places I have had internships at.

Then my teacher got an email in class so she came up to me and read it. They will not be able to adjust the schedule and said a lot more. This broke me. The teacher left the class after a short amount of time (well, pretty much instantly after she read the message) and I could feel how close my tears was..

So I packed my stuff and left. I went home. I called Michaela and cried!

Note that the supervisor has NOT messaged me anything about this.

I really wanted this. I really wanted to be able to work with special need children and later on study to become a preschool teacher.

But if I don’t have an internship at a preschool, I will automatically fail and therefore they will kick me out. I can’t continue.

So Sadly, my education ends today unless a freaking miracle happen.

So I think from now on, I need to stop with thinking positive about things, stuff, happenings etc. Because when ever something good happens to me, something will always knock me down and ruin things.

Anyway, rant over. I’m going to bed. Hopefully I can get some sleep. Due to all emotions, etc., today, I fell asleep when I came home, and I know that will mess up my sleep tonight, so let’s hope. Haha!

Stalker, meetings, and leftover pizza

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Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing good! I’m currently in bed for the night, but I wanted to pop in here and say hello!

Today has been pretty hectic due to meetings at hospital, monthly grocery shopping within a time limit which was very stressful, repack food before putting in freeze box,  study etc. it has been crazy today so now I’m finally in bed.

Today’s quick dinner while study; left over pizza. Yesh not healthy but it was something over from last night when M and son ate pizza (I always take chicken salad). *snapchat & filter*

Every class we get homework todo til next class and with my history of math etc, I struggle really hard.

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Confession time; I am dead scared of going in school now and alone in town. Why? Because I have a massive stalker who goes to same school as me.

Back story; I’ve met this man three times. Once at a busstop, once in school and now the third time in town when I was in town with my bestfriend. He snook up behind me and said “Hi Emma!” and I always answer when people talk to me so I said Hi back. After that, it went down hill. E even tried to help me get away from this man and after a while which felt like years he left so we could walk away. I was crying, very uncomfortable,  scared etc. This man has said he was COMING home to me, tried to kiss me, hug me, he touched me etc. More happened but this whole situation trigger me even when thinking of it (I’m shaking rn).

So my school situation right now is that my teacher know (I texted him the same night it happened, he called and we spoke), the boss over the principal knows and has spoken with all teachers so they all are keeping eyes on me. Which feels very wrong to be honest but I really appreciate it. Yet I am dead scared of going to school  I even have classmates who ends the classes early to walk with me to the busstop. that’s crazy!

Long story short; I have school five days a week and I really don’t wanna go but still go.

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I hope you all have an amazing day and remember this; you are fantastic and amazing. Never let anyone else tell you something else. Always.. always be true to yourself.

A fun way for a child to entertain themselves

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I have found a fun way for my son to entertain himself while I do the laundry. Practice writing numbers and letters. Yes it is the calender but he writes on months that has passed already. Not the current month or months that is coming up. I am so proud of him for how much he has developed since he started the school he attends now. When he was in preschool, they isolated him from other children so he never learned how to be a friend, wait for his turn etc. He never learned how to write etc so I stepped up and taught him. So now since he started in school he has developed so much – he say the letters and he counts to 29 but struggle saying 30. It has happened so fast but I am so proud and happy. In school they are practicing writing the letters but he already knew them. Also counting the numbers is something he has been taught at home so he were impressing the teachers at school when he counted so they decide to keep teach him more numbers so they and we are working on that.

E is not attending a regular school. He is attending a special need school because he has autism but I am forever thankful for the teachers and how much they have taught him on one year. He is in second grade right now and I can’t believe that he is that big!

So a simple way to entertain a child while doing laundry(or any other activity) so they learn numbers and letters -> Let them write in a calender with passed months! My son loves it and said over and over again (he did four months) “one more!”. He wanted to write them all!

Six deep and powerful quotes I think you will like

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A roller-coaster of emotions. No sleep and no rest.

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Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋  I hope you all are doing good!

been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?

So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.

They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.

afterwards,  we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.

Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.

I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.

It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..

30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.

yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..

Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much.  Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.

conclusion;  E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻

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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!

I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋

Four deep and powerful quotes I think you will like

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deep motivational and inspirational quotes for you and me.

A powerful quote I think you will like

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Goodmorning every beautiful soul 💛  I hope you all are feeling good. Relaxed. Happy and just positive! It’s Sunday! Which means resting day. Well not for me but hopefully for all of you!

I just wanted to pop in on this sunrise morning in Sweden (7.30am) and tell you all that

You are fantastic! You are strong, powerful and can do what ever you set your mind to! You are beautiful. You are amazing!

Never forget that!

Just getting the words out there to people

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Today I printed out a few of the QR codes. Went to dollarstore and bought some stuff so I were gonna be able to put them up. It was a challenge for me because having a blog and live in the town I do can cause a lot of talks, stares etc but it doesn’t matter. I need to learn how to stop think what people think and just do my thing. Even if it is blogging instead of tiktoks and being super active on instagram (I was that before but lately I have not).

So let’s see how this goes. I did this after school by the way . hehe! sneaky sneaky (well printing out I did before class but putting them up in public I did after).

Super excited to tell you what the niche is

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I saw a question that made me think really hard.. Why you chose your blogging niche? well to be honest, I have been blogging for many years, different blogs, different names etc and  I have been all over. Blog chaos, no red thread to follow etc. Which I might struggle with on this blog as well (atleast I struggle with my bad grammar – I’m sorry!) but why did I really picked my niche?

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well to be honest lifestyle suits me best because I wanna have a place where I can share my experience, news (good and bad) and have just a place to write on. Lifestyle for me is huge in the category but the best part you do not need one special niche. I love photography but I also love beauty and skincare and having lifestyle as a niche I will be able to post that instead of just focusing on ONE TOPIC. Now I will not have many topics in this blog. Maybe 4 or 5. lifestyle ~ (and daily life) photography, parenting (autism), beauty/skincare, mental health and inspirational posts.

For me important subjects are important to share  such as raising awareness about mental health, bullying and autism . How to help, work and go through it. In today’s society it’s (at least where I live) a taboo to talk about these things and I have been through shit tons of things so I know a lot.

Photography ~ share photographs I’ve taken, share info and try keep my spirit up for photography (as you might have notice I always have at lease one photo on each post. taken by me or borrowed) . Share for my adventures, fun moments etc.

Parenting ~ As you know, I’m a mother to a boy named E who has a severe case of Autism. Autism level 3 and is non verbal. // I will share his progress, development and steps forward to the future. Not to seek attention or what so ever but to just remember the moments.

Beauty / Skincare ~ my Instagram has a lot of posts of beauty & skincare but in here I will just include some looks when I wear, information etc. Updates on beauty / skincare part will be on instagram, just like some lifestyle (will update LS on here)

Inspirational posts ~ Everyone need to motivation and inspiration in their life and iam here to share both quotes etc I have written myself and those I found online.

so now you all know why I picked my blogging niche(sorta know. it’s hard to explain). What is your blog niche?