Hey guys! I’m sorry I have been low on updating the blog for the past days. I have been on my feets pretty much the entire time to see everything and take pictures!
Saturday when I arrived, I wasn’t able to check in until 2pm and I was here at 9am ish. So I got to store my bags etc in their closet and off I went to explore.
At first I was super excited to go to the city of Vemice (Venezia). I was so happy and ready to see all the romance people has talked about, the gondolas etc.
these pictures I took on my way to the hotel. Below you can see the pictures I took from Venezia.
Goodmorning pumpkins! I hope you all are doing good this lovely Thursday 🙌🏻
im currently in thr bath, writing this. It’s freaking cold here in Sweden and due to my diabetes, my feelings in feets/toes aren’t the best so before I can put on my warm wool socks I need to warm them up.
Plans for today? Well I went to the Healthcare clinic two days ago, met with a doctor who said I have no virus so I’m not in risk to get anyone else sick.. so I guess im going to school. WITH CAUTION OFCOURSE! Before school im gonna go buy more supplies of mouth mask/ facemasks. It’s starting to go low at home. And I’ll also sit in the way way back in the class.
What else? Well i got one of my packages with camera equipment! Woho. My tripod, few filters and also the hand holder (instead of the big to hang around your neck) but unfortunately that hand/wrist holder was bad because I tried it while sitting at the table and it “broke” so luckily the camera was mounted on to the screws.
I had a photowalk yesterday while the sun was out. Unfortunately it was harsh sunlight and i do not like that. But I managed to fix some pictures though.
not the best quality online though. I’ll upload more on my Instagram and Facebook page. Through my eyes and camera.
Photography for me is my kind of relaxation. Unfortunately I went through some things the other day that made me decide to not take pictures in town and around buildings. I will tell you guys more about that later. It was a sad decision for me but I am still scared and haven’t been able to shake off what happened.
What are some things that make you smile?that is actually one hard question. There is so many things but my absolute number one thing that makes me smile is my son.
Pic from our roadtrip we did. Oct 12th 2024
Watching my boy growing up. See how proud he is when he manage to say words that we would understand. How he manage to have cracked the code for talking and saying few words and tries to say full sentences.
What make me smile is watching my son grow up and become independent, which he already is now but not on everything but mostly everything.
My son has autism. To be correct, he has autism 3 (the hardest autism) and is non verbal (can’t talk like us) so you can all understand my smiles and my happiness whenever E has learned to say a new word.
He tries really hard and he has improved so so much. He say or try to say words but he also sign them. If we do not understand him, we guess til he shows us that it was correct. Or if he is impatient he will just grab our hand and show us.
so this is one thing that will forever make me smile.. My beloved son 💕
Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋 I hope you all are doing good!
been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?
So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.
They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.
afterwards, we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.
Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.
I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.
It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..
30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.
yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..
Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much. Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.
conclusion; E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻
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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!
I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋
Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.
When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.
Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.
I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.
This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.
Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰
as much as this blog will have a lot of photographs I have been taking I also will be sharing about my life and days. Like today my day was not good in school. I did a big exam in math and failed.
Math has always been a subject I always hated. I never got any help in school when I was younger and now iam in a class where I get a lot of help and actually learn math. That’s crazy! Back to the test, I tried hard. I doodled my calculations, I counted etc but yet I failed it. Luckily I can re-do it later. But it made the teach and I talk more about my past of school experiences etc. Let me just say that they were not good. We also spoke about my future, how the teacher will help me etc.
So after our talk, it got me thinking hard of my education. Iam already a nurse assistant but don’t wanna work on hospital etc anymore so I decided to study to become a preschool teacher. But here’s the problem, it’s in an other city and my husband has two jobs.. And we have E. So I must rethink my new carrier move.
I love teaching. I taught my husband swedish (fluently) both talking and writing on 6 months. I have easy to learn languages. I’ve learned sign language etc to communicate with my son when he can’t talk (he is non verbal but actually learning to say some words). And that’s how my thoughts of becoming a preschool teacher started.. I teach the children same as I teach my son. but like I said ..the education are in an other city and requires 5 days a week at school.
so now iam confused and lost. Should I give up this as I gave up my dreams to become a photographer for national geographic magazine.. as I have given up a dream carrier as a translator on arabic and spanish for embassies and governments (no education here in Sweden for that). what will my next move be?
tomorrow it’s time for math again. 12h a week in school.. only math. lovely. but tomorrow I will try attacking algebra and I’m scared.
Hello, good evening or goodmorning – depending where in the world you are ☺️ for me it’s soon night so goodnight from me.
it’s finally weekend and that means, quality time with my son (no school etc). Fun! But also deep cleaning of the home is doing. I do deep cleaning about once a weekend or every other weekend. Depending how it looks like. Also home spa night on Sunday ~ I’m thinking of dyeing my hair but I’m not sure yet.
deep cleaning for me is actually what it sound like.. cleaning of everything, vaccuum the beds, air blankets, pillows, wash windows etc. Husband is working. Hard? yup but hey, I’m a SAHM (apparently. lol) and I try to teach my son how to clean, do laundry and the every day daily life. He has autism and I don’t really know how to teach him things like in school but luckily I can teach him daily life stuff, words etc (my son is non verbal so we practice a lot on pronouncing words etc)
This week has been very low on workout activity for me. Reason? I felt ill ~ like I was about to get sick. But it didn’t break out so hopefully it was just a feeling so I can go back to the gym next week. New month, new goals, new chapter. Let’s go!
Well im off to bed. I apologize for a weird post this time. I hope you all have a beautiful day/evening/night.
