New week. New possibilities. New steps forward.
This weekend havent been si good to me. Removing more toxicness and negativity out of my life has really taken a toll on my mental health but hey, it might be worth it in the end? I don’t know.
Monday, November 4th, 2024. School. New classmates. Laughed at and massive feeling of disappointment.
Today started good in school but ended up me faking becoming sick so I could leave. First time I did this on this school. Why? A staff who helps students made fun of me and what I said. I got so mad I almost was about to explode but managed myself to stay calm and blame my migraine (I had migraine but is blamed that it became worse). I felt so disgusted, so disappointed, upset and really mad. I left the school so fast so I could cool off a bit away outside.
this happened infront of the two new classmates that started today!
We are grown people and they did this? What?! I can not believe it. and tomorrow it is school again.. hopefully i won’t see this person because iam not up for a confrontation to be honest.. not right now.
Are they staff who works with students (not a teacher) allowed to degrade a student like this? I think it calls degrade. I can be wrong, if so I apologize but I hope you get what I mean.
●●● Anyway, little rant about school today..
Tomorrow it’s Tuesday which means, school at the afternoon. Will probably bring my cameras with me so I can start learn the settings, tips and tricks again. Go for a walk and just be alone to breathe.
● This weekend havent been so good to me. Personally and mentally. Personally I can not talk about here but let me just say, that I have been hurt before by close people but this is in top 3 of the things the person has ever said to me. And that took a massive toll on my mental health. I cried and was hysterical because I couldn’t believe my eyes (the person wrote this so I read, not heard it) and wow I have been a mess but i take it as a sign ~ if that’s how the person feel, they are not meant to be in mine nor my son’s life . it’s that simple.
● My sister and her daughter had to go to an other city by helicopter last night. I can not write details but let me just say that iam terrified and scared. Worried and I don’t know all the emotions. My baby niece A has severe epilepsy and it has become worse. She’s 4 years old!
● I have made a Facebook group (yesterday) if you would like to join to see my artworks. My photographies. I’m gonna expand my equipment with time and hopefully be able to take better pictures 🥰 can’t wait!