Why can’t my body work? Why is my body always ruin things? It’s ruining my education and I’m heartbroken.

Lately, my body has begun to go against me. Migraine constantly—sometimes mild but mostly horrible. My body aches, my stomach is upset, etc. I don’t know what’s going on. I have tried to any kind of contact with a doctor but no luck.

My education is suffering, and it’s killing me! I am so far behind; even though I sent assignments in, I’m still falling behind. I have exams on Wednesday. Yet I don’t know if I will be able to attend it due to my body.

I can’t plan anything anymore. If I go out taking pictures, my body is ok, but I can’t go for a long walk from my home. I honestly have no idea what’s going on.

I was supposed to go to school today. I got up this morning, got ready, and boom, my body broke down. I had to message my teachers that I wouldn’t come in. Out of nowhere, my body broke down, and honestly, today I actually wanted to go to school. I was so prepared! So ready! I had packed my new backpack I got from J the other day; I had the outfits done, makeup, etc. Today was a makeup day for me—and boom. The body turned against me.

So I went to bed and fell asleep—again. I had already slept 9h, and now I fell asleep for another3 hours. I’m currently sitting in the living room, listening to the KallmeKris – Crime, Conspiracy, Cults and Murders podcast while writing this.

Even though I can’t go to school today, I will study. At least I’m home, and luckily they send the assignments in the school programs so I can do them at home. I will also try to get energy, etc., to fix stuff around at home. 

No, the body breakdown isn’t about energy, etc.; it’s something else. I don’t know what it is, and it scares me. I have never had this before. It’s not my mental health either. It feels so weird. I can’t describe it. What’s going on? 

Sorry for a bleh post but I just wanted to update y’all about current situation