One of my biggest fears is people staring at me. Im a big plus size person who has an illness called PCOS which makes me big and have harder time to lose weight. I have seen so many videos on instagram where big people has recorded themselves at the gym and people around is laughing, pointing etc. I have also seen when big people work out and trying really hard been secretly recorded and shared online. That’s a fear of mine. The laughs, pointing and secretly being recorded and shared online..

So one of my goals is to try go to the gym 3 – 4 times a week, both to work on my health (and mental health) but also push myself onto situations that scares me. Trying to overcome the fear and get out of my comfort zone. It’s a hard thing but I’m trying and it’s even hard to workout when my husband is working out but I’m trying. Why do I think it’s hard? judgement. Even if it’s my husband.

Only downside with me working out (other than the sweat is sweating)  is that every time I get a massive headache that last for hours. No matter how much water I drink. Today I drank 1,5 liter water at the gym trying to avoid the headache but it didn’t work. So I don’t know what to do to be honest to avoid the headache (other than stop going to the gym)

Today’s session ☆☆☆ Treadmill; 60 minutes (highest lvl pace; 6) ● bike; 5 minutes (today my knee didn’t let me do bike).

short session but it’s better than nothing. This week I have been to the gym twice (yesterday and today) and I will be back. lol! I’m forcing myself!

Do you have any inspirational saying or quotes that can help me stay on track?