Goodmorning pumpkins! I hope you all are doing good this lovely Thursday 🙌🏻
im currently in thr bath, writing this. It’s freaking cold here in Sweden and due to my diabetes, my feelings in feets/toes aren’t the best so before I can put on my warm wool socks I need to warm them up.
Plans for today? Well I went to the Healthcare clinic two days ago, met with a doctor who said I have no virus so I’m not in risk to get anyone else sick.. so I guess im going to school. WITH CAUTION OFCOURSE! Before school im gonna go buy more supplies of mouth mask/ facemasks. It’s starting to go low at home. And I’ll also sit in the way way back in the class.
What else? Well i got one of my packages with camera equipment! Woho. My tripod, few filters and also the hand holder (instead of the big to hang around your neck) but unfortunately that hand/wrist holder was bad because I tried it while sitting at the table and it “broke” so luckily the camera was mounted on to the screws.
I had a photowalk yesterday while the sun was out. Unfortunately it was harsh sunlight and i do not like that. But I managed to fix some pictures though.
not the best quality online though. I’ll upload more on my Instagram and Facebook page. Through my eyes and camera.
Photography for me is my kind of relaxation. Unfortunately I went through some things the other day that made me decide to not take pictures in town and around buildings. I will tell you guys more about that later. It was a sad decision for me but I am still scared and haven’t been able to shake off what happened.
Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋 I hope you all are doing good!
been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?
So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.
They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.
afterwards, we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.
Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.
I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.
It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..
30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.
yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..
Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much. Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.
conclusion; E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻
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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!
I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋
Hello, good evening or goodmorning – depending where in the world you are ☺️ for me it’s soon night so goodnight from me.
it’s finally weekend and that means, quality time with my son (no school etc). Fun! But also deep cleaning of the home is doing. I do deep cleaning about once a weekend or every other weekend. Depending how it looks like. Also home spa night on Sunday ~ I’m thinking of dyeing my hair but I’m not sure yet.
deep cleaning for me is actually what it sound like.. cleaning of everything, vaccuum the beds, air blankets, pillows, wash windows etc. Husband is working. Hard? yup but hey, I’m a SAHM (apparently. lol) and I try to teach my son how to clean, do laundry and the every day daily life. He has autism and I don’t really know how to teach him things like in school but luckily I can teach him daily life stuff, words etc (my son is non verbal so we practice a lot on pronouncing words etc)
This week has been very low on workout activity for me. Reason? I felt ill ~ like I was about to get sick. But it didn’t break out so hopefully it was just a feeling so I can go back to the gym next week. New month, new goals, new chapter. Let’s go!
Well im off to bed. I apologize for a weird post this time. I hope you all have a beautiful day/evening/night.
September is coming up and it goes fast! Wow. Can’t believe that it’s soon September and only 3 months left of 2024. That’s crazy!
I was thinking of making a small list every month (motivation/goals) list. You can join me as well 🥰 Let me know if you join this idea!
September 2024 goals ●●● BLOG RELATED; Grow so I reach 10 followers ● Blog at least once per day ~ if time, Blog two posts or more ● Share more photographs I take ●●● LIFE RELATED; Weightloss = gym at least twice per week. If time, try three ● -2kg (explaining this below) ●●●
sounds like a small little list that I hopefully can achieve 🥰 Looking forward to see the list at the end of September 🥰 Maybe you wanna join and make your own list of goals per month? Fun!
-2kg part; long story short. I was hysterical of losing weight two years ago when I lost so much in weight on 3 months. My brain didn’t follow the speed as my body shrunk and that wasn’t good. I was a maniac, I barely ate just to lose weight etc. Before my goals were 50kg on 5 months for an example. So now I’m trying to calm my head and take it slow.
on my way to school (first day!) I found this beautiful Keychain on the road. I had to pick it up and I left it at school incase the rightful owner finds it.
I love the message. Unfortunately I don’t know what “CA” stands for and “newcomer”. I have never seen a Keychain like this before so for me it was unique with a beautiful message behind it.
the world need more Positivity and not negativity. that’s what I felt with this Keychain. Positivity. love. power.
One of my biggest fears is people staring at me. Im a big plus size person who has an illness called PCOS which makes me big and have harder time to lose weight. I have seen so many videos on instagram where big people has recorded themselves at the gym and people around is laughing, pointing etc. I have also seen when big people work out and trying really hard been secretly recorded and shared online. That’s a fear of mine. The laughs, pointing and secretly being recorded and shared online..
So one of my goals is to try go to the gym 3 – 4 times a week, both to work on my health (and mental health) but also push myself onto situations that scares me. Trying to overcome the fear and get out of my comfort zone. It’s a hard thing but I’m trying and it’s even hard to workout when my husband is working out but I’m trying. Why do I think it’s hard? judgement. Even if it’s my husband.
Only downside with me working out (other than the sweat is sweating) is that every time I get a massive headache that last for hours. No matter how much water I drink. Today I drank 1,5 liter water at the gym trying to avoid the headache but it didn’t work. So I don’t know what to do to be honest to avoid the headache (other than stop going to the gym)
Today’s session☆☆☆Treadmill; 60 minutes (highest lvl pace; 6) ● bike; 5 minutes (today my knee didn’t let me do bike).
short session but it’s better than nothing. This week I have been to the gym twice (yesterday and today) and I will be back. lol! I’m forcing myself!
Do you have any inspirational saying or quotes that can help me stay on track?
