Goodmorning / goodafternoon / good evening my beautiful sunflowers! I hope you all are doing well today! I’m fine, just tired. Had nightmare last night mixed with migraine.
The nightmare was about (this actually happened irl) the carlane we were in for 4 hours and what we saw when passing it. There was a massive accident that had happen and as we drove by it, we saw the front of the car to windshield was under a truck and beside that car was a body bag with a person in. So I had flashbacks to that. Scary situation but im glad E didn’t see it. I have actually never seen a body bag before irl.. And I have worked at hospital and seniors homes.. it was scary.
Anyway, enough about that flashback. We are currently on our way to do some adventure. We spoke about going to the Sweden’s “Golden Gate Bridge” but I dont know anymore. We’ll see what happens.
I have been to that bridge once in my life and I cried and had panic the whole way over. I am very scared and have phobias for bridges. How i got that phobia? When I was younger I saw a clip, I dont know if it was from a news station in America or someone had recorded it, of the Golden Gate Bridge (or maybe an other Bridge that looked similar) how the storm was making it swing back and forth and the road up and down. I think I was five when I saw that and that phobia has been stuck ever since. So going over bridges now and especially with my son with me, I have to stay calm even though I have panic inside of me.
Do you have any phobias?
So we’ll see how this goes if we go there. If we go there I’ll take pictures ofcourse. It’s very beautiful there. Nature, water and the bridge. Mind blowing how people can build something like that! I dont understand how to be honest but again, im not a person who works with that.
I will blog later. I’m gonna try become more active here.
Goodmorning guys as you might know we were going to Switzerland but the plans got changed yesterday. We actually left home but only got to Gothenburg and due to some reasons we are on our way home again. Honestly, iam very upset about it because I actually was looking forward all the photographies to take, make memories with my son etc. But unfortunately we will stay home and hopefully find something to do instead.
Atleast we got one night at the hotel which was fun. E loved it and slept like a knocked out bull. This morning we had to wake up super super early and im struggling so hard with not fall asleep in the car.
We are currently stuck in carlane due to an accident. Been here for an hour or so. Ambulance helicopter landed on the highway and several ambulances plus police cars has passed so I dont know for how much longer we gonna be stuck in the car lane.
I have no more photos to show at the moment and nothing crazy has really happened so I will end the short post here and I wanna wish you all a fantastic day!
why am I ashamed? because I have wanted to blog for a long long time but havent really had anything to blog about. My life has honestly been very down lately but I feel its getting a bit better.
I have started to “take care” of myself better, put myself first (well.. my son comes first but you get it). I have been distancing myself more from people due to have been surrounded by toxic people. Kinda detoxing from people so I can heal.
I even cut “friends” out from my life due to lies, scam etc. Scams? Lies? Yes, you read it right. Who I thought was my friend used me and manipulated me til I put my foot down and asked my best friend for help.
I even failed school due to my son being sick so much so I missed out ~ ofcourse my son comes first! Don’t get me wrong ~ so I decided to stop attending or what to call, which means I failed school.
I have not picked up my cameras more than maybe twice since I was in Amsterdam. I lost the passion of using my cameras but have used my phone to take photos, which really havent been any “use” to show here on the blog nor Instagram.
I’ve stopped using social medias due to lost intests and feeling pressure to put on makeup, fix the esthetic feelings on photos etc just to please people. I was “like/following” hungry before but I realized .. whats the point? Why chase something that is no need when it comes to people who doesn’t care .. like genuinely cares about my content.. other than have a following of people who really actually care about my stuff my photos, my thoughts etc. For me, that is more important. Having a connection with readers, followers etc.
So right now I’m focusing on myself while also trying to remember how to breathe and how to be alone instead of trying to be surrounded by people the whole time. The next two weeks will be a challenge for me. Switzerland , yes its time to go to Switzerland. I have honestly not been looking forward to it due to three reasons, 1. We are going with an other family that the husband/father I dislike.. like massively dislike. 2. Knowing the reality that im the one who’s gonna be the only parent on the trip while M will have fun (dont get me wrong, I love my son but sometimes I want to kinda.. walk around, breathe and just think by myself) 3. Switzerland is a very beautiful country from what I have googled and heard from people but its not really a country that “speaks” to me to come visit but I’m trying to think positive about it ~ first outside Sweden vacation with my son (even though the responsibilities will be 1000% on me) & new views to see & snap photos of ofcourse.
Today I have actually
✅️ emptied all the memory cards ✅️ Charged batteries to the cameras ✅️ Written a whole new list of our stuff to bring ✅️ Ordered stuff that is needed (medicines etc) ✅️ Packed down my camera gears
So now its only clothes, electronics etc that need to be packed down in the suitcase which I will do tomorrow while son is at school. Also a seperate bag for E’s stuff to have in car to entertain him when we arent at playgrounds on the road. I have also written a list of what to bring for E and the carride . Yes it might sound ridiculous but I take precautions any time instead of his his tantrums (autistic & non verbal) and him being absolutely bored. Remind you that he is just seven years old so he ain’t getting electronics. What I have written on the list is just coloring pens, papers, toys, his stuffed animal, kickbike + helmet, football and few books. Something to keep him a bit occupied when not looking out through the windows which he loves when going on car rides.
Parents with children who travel , is there something I should think of?
This is the very first time we go outside Sweden and actually for a long car ride with E (son) so we dont really know but ofcourse im using my mama feelings but it feels like im missing something or somethings but dont know what.
i will answer your comments! i just saw them! i havent gotten notifications on the jetpack app about comments, likes etc! IAM SO SORRY! I use jetpack when blogging on phone.
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well, almost all green. Atleast it’s no snow in sight which makes me so so happy. I really dislike snow.
Husband worked til 10am, went to sleep and after that we went on a small car ride together with E. Pretty cozy. First ice cream and later we saw a lot of animals.
I like how the house is “focused “
How have your day been? Laundry and folding laundry has been my entire day except when cuddle or playtime with son. Thank God the weekend is finally over and all the week days routines is back in action (we have routines on weekends as well but not as strict as week days).
Preparing with a packing list , ok iam insane. I have already started to write list of what to pack for our vacation. One week and if I know myself, I’m gonna have the big suitcase by myself. Lol!
I apologize for not answering your comments 😭 I’m truly sorry! I will answer them as soon as I have battery in my laptop (I have problems commenting via jetpack app). I am so sorry 😔🌸
*yawn* Goodmorning pumpkins! I hope you all had a good night sleep and feeling rested and alert ! I hope you all are doing good today!
I have been up since 3.45am *yawn* due to my son decided to wake up and ohmygod iam so tired. I’m currently in bed now after he went to school. But unfortunately I can just rest /sleep for an hour before I have to get up and get ready to go to the city. What we will do there? Well unfortunately I can not say (right now and i must ask permission first) but it is very important.
Maybe we have some time afterwards to take a short walk in the city before we have to head back home so we can pick E up from school.
It will be about 2h car ride in total and I love car rides but damn. In this condition, absolutely not.
Today’s to do; ● meeting in the city ● take a few photos maybe while there ● study when back home ● clean ● take care of the laundry i did spontaneously last night after E fell asleep ●
explanation about my shoulder;I worked as a care giver before (I think it calls that) and after my shift when I went back home, I slipped on ice under snow so I hurt my shoulder and I got some nerve damages and beginning of something called “frozen shoulder”. Which means I need a surgery to separate the nerves and fix the damage. But I’m scared of doing the surgery.
Have anyone of you done a surgery on/in a shoulder? If you have, please tell me how it started, how it felt after surgery, rehabilitation and if you have no problems or less of problems after.
Goodmorning my beautiful pumpkins! How are you all today!? I hope you all are doing good and that you have a calm and relaxing Sunday!
Today E decided to wake up at 6.30am (sleep in!) so I went to cuddle with him and had a tickle fight while M were sleeping. After a while we got up, had some quick sandwich in the stomach so the worse hunger weren’t kicking in. We eat breakfast together when M is home from work so after 1 hour he woke up so we could have a real breakfast.
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Child had breakfast ✔️Edited some photos from yesterday’s picnic ✔️ Booked hotel for vacation in November (husband booked it) ✔️
Today’s list; laundry ○ clean ○ prepare for dinner and cook dinner ○ maybe go on a car ride as usual ○ give E a bath and prepare for school tomorrow ○ pack mine and E’s bags ○ and probably more Will be added on the list.
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picture from yesterday’s car ride. The fall is absolutely stunning.
Hi little ghosts and pumpkins (yeah I know. little random but on my former blog I called everyone that 👻🎃)
Today has been a “chill” day. With “chill” I mean, no school for me because I have to stay home and take care of my son. He is not sick but he had an asthma attack so I didn’t want to send him to school. Hopefully he will be able to go tomorrow. Depends on how his voice and throat is (it’s better now but it still has that .. raspy voice you know) so well see.
After my husband came home from work, we went on a small car ride (E loves going in cars and we let him explore new locations and environment.. But due to his raspy voice we never went outside the car). Today’s car ride was a little bit disappointing for me. The sun was hiding so it was dark and boring but I still loved seeing all the beautiful colors but the photos I took became so dull and boring.
We stopped a few times so I could take photos (for the blog ofcourse!) but I took them with my hand out of the window 😅 Just to not make E jealous (he always wants to run etc) so to avoid that where cars are driving fast, I didn’t step out.
Now I’m just gonna chill before bed.
Few pictures 🍁🧡 More Will be posted 🍁🧡
I don’t know why the quality of my photos are so bad 😭 I shoot raw.
