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Life as a nature photographer

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What have I got myself into to be honest.. I love taking pictures but risking my life just to get few pictures.. Is it worth it? Maybe. Depends on situation. but to be honest, no.

When I went to my location to take these photos (below), I slipped and fell on big rocks. I managed to stop before hitting the big big rocks and water luckily. But I got hurt really bad and today I feel like a train has run over me.

WARNING; BLOOD AND WOUND

I really didn’t even notice that I was bleeding until I by accident saw it when I was fixing settings on my camera. After I saw it I felt the pain . Not before. How crazy is that? Thank God I was surrounded with snow so I could make it stop bleeding fast.

Today; I can move my finger but it hurts really bad. The wound is pretty deep and big.

Was it worth though? No. For me it wasn’t. The pictures didn’t turn out how I pictured them in my head but it is alright. I had a tiny adventure.

One thing I often ask myself, Am I a nature photographer or just a person trying really hard? What is really the answer? For me  yes iam one but for professional photographers etc I would just be this “girl with a camera trying hard”.

My dream is to become a good photographer. Having the right equipment so I could be able to travel the world and take stunning pictures. A girl can dream right?

National Geographic Magazine.  Now that would be an achievement of life time. Unfortunately I know that would never happen but I have a goal and that keep me moving forward.

Hopefully in future I’ll be able to take other pictures without risking to fall, slip and hurt myself. Lol!

How it felt and how it happened

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Well.. ADHD and spontaneous feeling combined it ✨️ magical ✨️  but very painful.

Yesterday my bestfriend E booked an appointment at a piercing artist. She was the one supposed to do piercing but it ended up that I got one too. Spontaneously.

E got four piercings and I got this painful beauty. But we had fun all three of us! First i almost knocked the piercing table over. We laughed so much! Tears were falling by all laughing. After we calmed down a bit, we took my piercing. I was first to do it – thank god or else I would have backed out.

My experience;  It happened faster than in my head seemed.  For me it felt like 30 minutes but it took 5 minutes to do it. The pain was awful and I was crying. Tears were falling so hard and I screamed ofcourse. The artist said that I had high voice pitch but I said that it was tiny and I can higher. Afterwards the laughter kicked in. normal reaction for me.

pain; 10/10 (for me. For others, other points)

Afterwards, it was E’s turn. Nose, two in ears and belly. It was very interesting and I was joking while she was getting them. laughter, jokes and everything during that time. One hour.

This morning ; cleaning the piercing was a nightmare. So much dried blood after even when cleaned last night. But now it’s 100% clean.

Healing procession;  3 – 6 months.

So we’ll see if it helps with the migraine. It’s not clinical proved that it works but for some it works for but I got a migraine after it and still have it. But hey, im unique so maybe that’s why. Lol!

It’s brutal but hey, I’m strong

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*yawn* Goodmorning pumpkins! I hope you all had a good night sleep and feeling rested and alert ! I hope you all are doing good today!

I have been up since 3.45am *yawn* due to my son decided to wake up and ohmygod iam so tired. I’m currently in bed now after he went to school. But unfortunately I can just rest /sleep for an hour before I have to get up and get ready to go to the city. What we will do there? Well unfortunately  I can not say (right now and i must ask permission first) but it is very important.

Maybe we have some time afterwards to take a short walk in the city before we have to head back home so we can pick E up from school.

It will be about 2h car ride in total and I love car rides but damn. In this condition,  absolutely not.

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barely any sleep ~ been up since 3.45am ~ massive p.pain ~ and massive pain in my shoulder ● Sounds lovely eh?

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old pic of me but I kinda like it. lol

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Today’s to do; ● meeting in the city ● take a few photos maybe while there ● study when back home ● clean ● take care of the laundry i did spontaneously last night after E fell asleep ●

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explanation about my shoulder; I worked as a care giver before (I think it calls that) and after my shift when I went back home, I slipped on ice under snow so I hurt my shoulder and I got some nerve damages and beginning of something called “frozen shoulder”. Which means I need a surgery to separate the nerves and fix the damage. But I’m scared of doing the surgery.

Have anyone of you done a surgery on/in a shoulder? If you have, please tell me how it started, how it felt after surgery, rehabilitation and if you have no problems or less of problems after.

I would really appreciate if you could tell me.

Massive pain in lower back and tears

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Goodmorning everyone! I hope you all are doing good this beautiful sunny day (atleast in Sweden the sun is finally shining). Today I was supposted to go to school but unfortunetly I had to text my teacher letting him know that I can not attend class today. Reason? Lumbago (is that the correct word?). Just because I don’t know what it’s really called I’ll try to explain instead. It’s a sharp massive pain in my lower back (lumbar spine?) that makes me not able to stand or walk normally. My husband smacked my ass (like he always do when I walk by (that loving, couple thing. Not abusing) and he forgot that I have this pain so i screamed out loud and started to cry.

Imagine having this pain and try function at school. Yeah no. I had this before and husband and I went to an other town and oh my god that was horrible. Oh well, enough about this negativity. Lol!



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