Spring is officially here and i couldn’t be more happy!
Hello darlings! I hope you all are doing wonderful!
The winter is officially gone here, where I live. Well, we still have snow, but it’s melting away so fast! TIME TO BRING OUT THE BIG GUNS! (no weapon!) I can finally walk outside in my Crocs! Oh, how much I have been waiting on that! Yes... I use Crocs. Lol!
Moving in the shadows. That is one line that goes on repeat inside my head. That line, or “move in the shadows, babe.” I have seen too much of Charlotte Dobre on YouTube and even listened to her “podcast” on Spotify. Hilarious one! 10/10 recommend if you wanna laugh.
And moving in the shadows is exactly what am doing. What am doing I can not tell yet 🤫
Anyway, last time I posted here, I wrote about the new glasses. I have now been wearing them 24/7 (not really, but from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep), and I can honestly say this will be a long two weeks to get my eyes used to them. Luckily I only have a week left-ish before I need to go back to those I bought the glasses from.
But so far I have noticed I see a little (just a teeny tiny bit) better with glasses on, but only when I see near/close, but I struggle a lot with looking a bit ahead. So hopefully it will get better soon, or else I just have to go back and have them fix new glasses in the glasses which I know will cost me. a lot of money. Sadly.
As you can see, the size of the glasses is massive compared to my sunglasses. It looks so funny but hey, I get alot of stares and looks but I dont care. I have no more energy to care about stuff like that.
✨️ working on my mental health and stepping away from negativity ✨️
I just noticed in my calender that in three weeks I have the four weeks long internship at a daycare (1-3 year old children). This time I will be at an other place due to problems on the last one. I was supposed to be a student, follow the supervisor and watch & learn but I got “thrown in” as a teacher instantly which I didn’t like (no problem at all but I didnt have experience in this working area). I used the motherly instincts that came automatically so I told my teacher what happened so she magically managed (after months!) finally found a new location for me.
Am I nervous? Yes. I don’t know how that location is. Will they accept me? Will they be rude towards me? Etc. Wouldn’t be the first place people would’ve been rude towards me there for this question.
So let’s hope that this time I will have a better experience 🤞🏻🤞🏻
I did something I wasn’t allowed to do, but I just had to. I sneaked to take a photo of my shoes after some children had fun and sneaked to add the magnetic letters on my shoes.
What they thought was that I didn’t feel anything, but what they didn’t know was that I felt and knew they were doing it but played along.
I know I broke one rule, but I took this picture way, way, waaaay away from any children, so I was still thinking of where to take it. Also made sure no names were shown or pictures of the children.
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Hello, my beautiful pumpkins! Yes, I can officially call you all my pumpkins because now it’s HALLOWEEN SEASON! Woho!
Today I had my third day at my internship (3 of 5), and no more for this week. The start of the day was chaotic! Oh my god! It started with the alarms on my phone not going off, and I woke up at 06:54am… my bus left at 07:10am, so you all can imagine the stress! But I managed to get myself out to the bus stop. Here comes another thing that made the day more chaotic: the bus was super late! Oh my god. So I messaged the preschool I’m having the internship at, explaining, and it was okay for them, but I apologized!
I do not want to come more late than I already do (with agreement with my supervisor) due to my son and his taxi to school.
I basically ran to the preschool, so I tried to get in closer “time” to when I normally am there. I managed... by five minutes after my normal time. Oh my. It was insane!
My supervisor was home today (reason no need to be added here), so I was with two other teachers, and it was good. It was really good. to see how they worked and their routines!
Today, on my third day,I have been doing bracelets and necklaces made of plastic beads that children in preschool use and make jewelry from. Super cute. ● I have been pretty much all day sitting at a table with some children and made bead jewelry and bead plates. ● One child and I wanted to do a Halloween pumpkin, but they didn’t have a printed-out picture, so I used my phone to find one for inspiration, etc., until one of my supervisors today was available. I asked for their tab and explained. ● I have also been reading books for the kids (nerve-wracking!), and they liked it! Woho! ● We also went to another part of the preschool (they have three departments, or whatever you want to call it) with some children so they/we could play with big blue blocks, and oh boy, how much fun we had!
This was pretty much my day (more happened but can not write about that) and I am happy. I was able to help children (without my supervisors) with getting dressed, to help with food etc.
So now I only have two more days here at the preschool, and I’m honestly really sad about that. The children are wonderful, and the staff is amazing! I hope they all see how much I like it here and how much I try.
Next week, I’m back to school but also have two more days of the internship.
I haven’t blogged on Monday or Tuesday.I have been at the internship, and I have been so drained of energy. Especially last Monday (September 8). My first day. Oh my god.
When I came home, I fell asleep in the armchair (is that the correct word?) . I was tired!
From first step of the day til I left for the day;
I met up with my supervisor at the internship. When I heard the name from my teacher, like two weeks before I had the internship, I had a feeling of who it was. Aaaaaand I was correct!
My supervisor was a classmate of my sister A, and my sister M went to the same class as my supervisor’s brother. So I knew who she was. I mean, how small is the world?
Anyway, I came there (after being confused about how to get there) after a little bit. Met my supervisor, and we talked a lot. She told me about the rules, what I had to observe, what to do, etc. It was so much, but I have managed to remember everything.
My first mission (for me) was to try to memorize the names of the children plus who is who. Wooh, boy, that was a challenge.
(I am not gonna write so much about the preschool but i can talk a little bit of activites I did etc) I spoke with my supervisor and told her that I am a blogger and also a photographer. I asked what their secrecy when it came to me writing and photos (I already knew to not take pictures where any child was in the picture) – I asked if I could take picture of for an example if I was drawing with the children and I showed her how I meant and took a picture of a table so she could see what I meant. No! There was no children near or around the area I took the picture off.
At first she said yes after seeing the picture and that I made it crystal clear how I was taking pictures if I was allowed. But after a while after our talk I came up to her, just to talk again about my blog and photos. I explained that I was thinking a lot about the talk we had about pictures and I felt it was not a good idea and she agreed on that. I mean, sure I blog but why take pictures on activites? (Yes I know how it sounds like here when I write about it but talking swedish and try to explain to english with words I know might cause problems but I want to share this moment anyway – even though my english is super duper bad I do not mean any harm or anything. Which my supervisor understood)
ok that was a lot () but I will explain with all this. For me, its important for people know about my memory and how I use my blog to remember stuff that has happened and I also share pictures. I told my supervisor all this and explained when it started to happen (after my father’s death) and she understood. (I know i might sound repetitive now) I also explained her that im a photographer. (I know, maybe useless information for her and even share that but I will get to my point) I told her I love taking photos and now when it’s autumn here in Sweden, I love taking photos of the nature with all colors and contrast.
I asked her if I had permission to take photos of the nature (example on a tree with different colors) and she said yes, as long as no children is near and it’s calm around (OFC!) so we agreed that I could take pictures of the nature as long as it also doesnt show the location, any children or so. Ofcourse! 1000% completely understood.
Let’s get back to the photos of activites now when i have shared a little back story of all this and why I asked.
My intention of taking pictures of activites I did while I was there (drawing, playing games etc) was for myself to remember what I did that day. Like I wrote above, my memory is awful and seeing pictures and read a bit about it, helps me remember. At first it was a yes and I had permission to do that but after been thinking a lot about this (pictures) and remembered some news that has happened, I had a feeling not to do it which I told my supervisor and like I said, she agreed on it and we came to the conclusion that I am allowed to write about my days at the preschool (I even offered her to read everything and check if it’s ok or not but she said she trusted me and didnt need to read) and I could write from my perspective etc. For an example “Today I have been sitting at a smaller table with a few kids at the preschool and we were drawing, laughing and had fun”.
So I will not share any pictures from my days at the preschool (this time and also next semester in school. I’m going to be there for four weeks) but I will share text about my days.
This picture is took with my supervisor next to me. We both laughed when we saw this. Childhood memories
Woop well lets get back to my first day at the internship!
On my first day, I learned the names of the children (I struggled with a few). ● I attended to their daily routines. ● Breakfast, lunch, and afternoon snack. ● I stopped a situation that could have caused an accident—a child was banging on a window. ● I got a chance to supervise children outside on their break. ● Two children got attached to me 🥺 They trust me and that is the biggest reward ever. ● Four children came up to me and said, “We want you to have these. These are for you,” and gave me the flower petals in the picture at the top—I got them from children that wasn’t from my class. 🥺
On my second day, I helped the children get dressed to go out (rain outfits) and put the vests on. That was huge for me because the children had grabbed their vests and gave them to me to put them on them. ● I had responsibilities for three children when we went to the kitchen to get the lunch for everyone. They did so well, and the kitchen staff told me I did so well with the children (I played with them to stand against the wall and wait until I had rolled out the trolley with the food out in the hallway). They did fantastic! And they were listening so well to me, and I let them pull the trolley while I was holding on to it in front. They laughed so much because I joked with them while walking back to the class. ●I had the responsibility to set the tables for all the children and teachers. I also was the one who said what the food was, etc. ● We had a bit of a dance after having a “lesson” of emotions (the color monster), and that day was the blue monster, which is the sad monster. When the “lesson”/activity was over, the teacher played happy music, which made the children jump, dance, and laugh, so I joined them 🤭. That made them join even more, but we all had fun.
These are just a few things from the first two days that I did. So far, it is amazing, and I love it. Even when I have a headache 24/7. I love it.
Oh! Fun thing:one child saw when I spoke once that I had “something black in my mouth” (the child’s words) and wanted to see. I showed the child, and oh boy, that child was fast to tell the others about it after I told the child (after the child asked what it was and why I had it) that I have a hole in my tongue and I wanted to have it. Within 5 minutes, all the kids knew about it and all wanted to see it. What would I do?I showed it, and they checked their tongues to see if they had the same. One teacher laughed when I showed it. But honestly, I’m not sure if I was allowed to do it but I think it’s all good because the children asked what it was, etc. (knowledge?).
Anyway, these were my first two days. I was supposed to be there today as well, but I had to change days till next week because of personal reasons, so tomorrow (Thursday) will be my last day at the internship for this week, and next week I do these two days I miss this week.
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I know this was a super long post, and I am thankful and grateful that you took your time to read this.
I just want to re-explain: I will not take pictures. I will write about my days. ● Even though I know my explanation makes me sound weird, it was nothing in my intentions.It’s hard for me to explain with correct words. My supervisor understood me and what I meant, so that is the most important.
