I know I blame my ADHD a lot but this time, it was really ADHD MOMENT .

Home alone, ADHD plus boredom =

✨️ CATASTROPHE ✨️

Hello guys! It’s currently night here, and I am in bed. The bonnet (is that the word? Sorry if I’m wrong!) is on due to I don’t want to ruin my pillows. Why? Weeeeeeeell, I kinda did something.

Round 1: the dye didn’t take so well on the hair, as you can see in the picture. So of course, me being unhappy with it, went for a round two. Hopefully it will be better, or else I have to go for a round three one day, but now I’m going to let my hair rest a bit before I jump into the hair mask and make it more red. Baby steps.

I was bored, okay? 😅 And unfortunately I didn’t have brown hair dye at home, but I did have my bulk/stacked-up red hair conditioner.Yes, this is not real hair dye; it’s conditioner, a sort of hair mask I mixed with normal conditioner.

Tomorrow is the actual FIRST day of school, and I am not as nervous and terrified as I was last week. Sure, all the classmates didn’t attend, but some did.

Originally we were apparently supposed to be 25 students, but many dropped out before it started, so we are only 10 or 11 students. So let’s see how this goes.

Tomorrow the classes start for real. No more “first week, get to know each other” stuff. I actually thought and still think it was unnecessary. With all the child games, etc., but oh well. Now it’s time to really get into it. Feelings? Mixed feelings, honestly. It’s not about the classmates and class itself but the lessons.

When I studied to become the nurse assistant, I was waaay ahead of the game and classmates. When they were doing exams, etc., like two months into the education, I asked teachers for more assignments. I wanted to be a long way ahead of everyone, but in the second semester, my mental health went downhill, and honestly, I’m terrified that it will happen again.

Due to the fact that I’m working on my mental health to turn it around to actually become better, I’m scared. Not to get better but for the school and my struggles. Imagine being in a school with 3K+ teenagers, bullying, bad mental health, etc. The pressure to actually pass this is massive pressure on me. It will be a challenge, but hey, if I managed to fix the nurse assistant education at the same school and actually passed… I will fix this education as well. 🤞🏻 Wish me luck, though. Lol!

●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●

I’m off to bed, so goodnight, my lovely people, and remember to subscribe to my blog to follow my new chapter in life. Exciting but also scary.