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The second challenge

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Trying so hard to not fall for the temptations of unhealthy stuff is really difficult.

I promise I won’t only write about the weightloss journey but I will share updates, progress etc. So I can go back to my blog and read if I lose the motivations one day

Grocery shopping,

the second challenge

I went grocery shopping today. I was missing a few ingredients for today’s dinner (changed plans), and while being at the store, I struggled so much. They had freshly baked cinnamon buns, and those are also my weakness. I took a picture and sent it to my friend and wrote, “I am tempted.” She said, “Nope!” so I answered her, “I walked away,” and I am proud of myself! I did NOT buy any! It’s not often I buy them, but today it was awful how they triggered me, but I managed to resist the temptations! Plus points to me!

Grocery list;

  • 2 bags of onions
  • 2 bags of carrots
  • 1 parsnips
  • 1 2kg bag of potatoes
  • Some bananas
  • One healthy yogurt natural
  • Lemon mayonnaise (the only unhealthy thing)
  • 1 bag of frozen vegetables
  • 1 package of button mushrooms
  • Pepsi Max (I will continue being strict with myself)

I changed my mind on today’s dinner and I am actually (be shocked! because I am!) craving fish! That has never happened before.

Today’s dinner

(the changed plan)

Fried raw potatoes (I will use measuring cup when making) ● fish ● vegetables ● button mushrooms ● onions ● boiled carrots ● maybe a bit of the parsnip as well

Yes I know i eat button mushrooms a lot but hey, atleast they are healthy!

I have also started to eat carrots as night snacks before bed; that’s why I bought more carrots. I have honestly made a 180 on my lifestyle when it comes to food. Maybe I should say… 300°, not fully 360° yet.

picture credit; Parade.com

Shocked, but super happy

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I am in shock. Five days and it already shows?

Hello my beautiful boo’s 🩷 I hope you all are doing fantastic today! I hope you all had or have depending where in the world you are at right now, a wonderful Saturday/(/or sunday).

Why am I shocked, and what am I planning?

Well, on October 26th (Sunday) I started with the 16:8 diet but changed it to 17:7 due to school. Unfortunately my blood sugar didn’t respond so well to that diet, so I had to stop with it, but I have kept a bit from it.

Slowly showing and it keeps me motivated to keep going. Slowly but steady. I’m not gonna become a maniac as I was back in 2022 and walked daily for 3 months and lost 40kg.

Lately I had started to eat “breakfast” and cut back a lot on Pepsi Max. As you all know, I am heavily addicted to Pepsi Max and normally drink 4-6 L per day! I know, insane! But lately I have been struggling with cutting back while at the same time struggling to drink more water. I have gone from 4-6 L per day to at max 1.5 L, but the past couple of days I have only been drinking max 1 L. Tonight (and other nights) I had 0.5 L of Pepsi, and I am so proud of myself. I have been drinking tons and liters of water. According to an app I use to keep track, I have drunk 3 L of water today—now that’s insane! So in total I’ve been drinking 3.5 L today, and oh god, I am beyond proud.

I have also stopped eating popcorn (which was a heavy trigger for me) and started to eat more carrots instead for night snacks! Never happened before, and I actually don’t feel hungry after two hours or so, so that is a win-win!

From my weight last Monday (10th of November) until today (15th of November), the scale shows -3 kg! THAT IS SHOCKING! Like what!? I can’t believe it but it makes me motivated to keep going! So I’ve actually started to plan on workouts for me to do! Crazy! No, it’s not boxing; it’s actually water aerobics.

I have looked into prices and locations and times and when I can go for regular swimming, and I am going to purchase a 10-times card in the beginning and try it out.

I won’t get electrocuted?

I have also ordered (I can’t without music) a waterproof MP3 player that I can attach to my bra while swimming, and luckily, a pair of headphones was included, so let’s go!

Hopefully they work. According to the description and website (all about water sports, swimming etc), it says it is. You can even dive 3 m with them. So I think they will work? If not? Oh well. Let’s just hope i wont be electrocuted in the water!

  • Ordered a waterproof mp3 player
  • Looked up prices, times, etc. for water aerobics and when to do regular swimming.
  • Looking around for a bathing suit, but I don’t know.

Today’s dinner

½ dl rice ● 1 chicken breast in oven ● 100 gram of fried button mushrooms ● ½ dl of fried onions ● 3 dl of veggie mix and 1 tbs of currysauce for flavor

Have a wonderful day!

I’m bummed

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He is supposed to start a free time activity tomorrow but we have to cancel it.

Happy Friday my boos!

Today has been an OK day. The struggle with abstinence of Pepsi Max is real (I’m addicted so while doing my healthy lifestyle turnaround, I’m also working on my addiction) and I can honestly say, I have ONLY had 50cl today! Which is ridiculously little!

My addiction to Pepsi Max is out of control. I drank up to 6 L per day, so imagine how I am now and how I feel with this struggle. It’s working sort of. I wish it could have been easier to just stop all of it instantly.

So far – I am dead proud of myself 👏🏻

“I’m gorgeous, right? Bleeh jokes on you! I’m not!”
Filter for lashes and the heart things.

After the walk I had earlier today (read HERE), I actually had a little bit of “home spa night,” which I normally have on Sundays, but today I felt I wanted and needed it.

I was supposed to go to a meeting today, but I had to cancel it on my part (M went on it luckily) due to taking care of E when he has a stuffed nose and is sick. He was supposed to go to school today, but nope, I had to report him sick, so it’s been a… “calm”-ish day. M had worked, came home, and ate. I got ready and went out on the walk at the same time as the grocery shopping. So much needed for my brain and mind. Even though the walk was short—but hey, sunlight, music and frost—I’m not saying no to that (could have skipped the frost and the cold part though)

Tomorrow E is supposed to have his very first hockey practice.  J (my friend) is training (again) in hockey, so I have spoken with her, and she checked with her trainer, and E is allowed to train with J and the girls. Sadly, that has to be canceled as well. Hopefully next weekend will work!

today in list;

  • I did fall asleep this evening
  • I have eaten three carrots with aioli dip (not much) as night snack before bed
  • I have watched one episode of 1000lb Best Friends, and I get more and more motivated and inspired.
  • Grocery shopping
  • Been out on a walk
  • Felt proud of myself for the first time in a loooong time
  • E asked if I wanted to play with his toy trucks and I dropped everything I did and joined him.
  • Messing around on the floor (yes, I lay on the floor. No construction service was needed to call to help me get up of the floor. Lol!)

That’s pretty much my day.  Nothing special. We’ll see what happens tomorrow.

1000lbs Best Friends made me a bit motivated.

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The TV show is opening my eyes. I never thought it would do that but now I am slowly adjusting my life and my habits.

1000 lbs Best Friends is the show I am currently watching. It’s actually an eye-opener for me. I know I am big and overweight, and I have been working on it but this show actually shows me tips and tricks on new ideas and life choices. 

(I’m writing this for me but heeeey boo! Thanks for reading. I hope you are having an amazing day)

In one episode I have watched, they have visited a fitness center where they had kickboxing and boxing. I have been interested in that for a long time, and seeing how much fun they had, them sharing their problems, etc., makes me actually want to look into it. Instead of just going on walks and photowalks. I want to do something else.

I went to the gym before, and I went there pretty much every day, but I had to quit because it was causing more problems mentally, and I couldn’t go there. So the gym is off the radar right now, but maybe later.

I have started to write a “food diary.” I have been against it my entire life. I thought it was ridiculous, but honestly, I need to, just to see, for example, which time of the day is worse, what I eat, etc. This time I’m going to try. Yeah, I know I talk a lot about weight loss, etc., but I have been struggling my entire life with weight problems (PCOS, genes, etc.).

Food diary ● look up boxing or some kind of workout activity ● Find a therapist to talk about my problems ● Work on my bulimia ● Work on my diabetes

So as you see, it’s a lot to do but I’m going to try.

Sunlight yet minus degrees Celsius outside

Sunlight, cold-biting cheeks and .. Just breathing

Today I have actually been out for a walk. I needed to get out of the home and clear my mind. So much is going on in my head and you all know me. photos is always taken!

Click on make bigger size (all off those)

Even when the sun was out and shone so beautifully, it was freaking cold. Now the winter is coming. They have already warned about snow—I am NOT ready for that!

My walk was just approximately 30 minutes; I wasn’t dressed properly, but at least I was out. Windy and biting feelings on my cheeks. Now I actually have a headache after the cold on my forehead. I forgot my headband—well, I didn’t think/know that I needed it. From now on I will use it.

Today’s dinner

Swedish sausage stroganoff with rice with vegetables,  boiled carrots, button mushrooms and onions.

Grocery shopping

I have also been to the store and bought all bran flakes, müsli, bananas, yogurt, etc. Just to keep up my “healthy” breakfast & before-bedtime snack—Turkish or Greek natural yogurt with muesli. I do need to buy frozen fruits, though, instead of using a bit of strawberry jam to get some flavor.

QUESTION..

Do you wish for recipes i try on my weightloss journey? Or do you have any recipes?

My recipes will not contain eggs & seafood . I don’t eat that

Spilling a secret.  It’s scary for me.

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Happy Halloween and Happy November 1st! CRAZY how time flies! I wanted to post yesterday and wish you all a happy Halloween and also say to stay safe. In Sweden people has started with that clown bullshit again. That thing that was a trend few years ago. Well, in Sweden they still do it.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN &

HAPPY NOVEMBER 1ST!

🎃✨️🎃

Lately I have been super busy with school, meetings, education for ADHD / AUTISM, having exams, send in assignments etc plus getting ready for tomorrow because my son E turns 8 years old! Now THAT is insane and crazy!

Yesterday’s simple makeup. Red eyeshadows with mix of brown colors and yellow lines. ● How suitable aren’t my tattoos when it’s Halloween? Snake and a pumpkin face.

Surprising E the day before his birthday

M is planning on going to the swimming pool/aquatic center with E, which is a lovely idea. E loves being in water and play around.

Yesterday I did makeup (I think I’m slowly getting back to it, but not daily as I had before). I miss doing makeup and actually wanted to do like a Pennywise (the dancing clown) with the red from the mouth and above the eyebrows, like a clown shape but in black. I decided to not do that due to the grocery shopping we had to do.

So I might do it later. Maybe tomorrow for school? Haha! Na, probably not.

Better view of the yellow lines. It actually look weird on one eye but oh well

Update on my diet but also a deep secret of mine is getting … told.

Short update on the diet I’m doing. I have changed it a bit from 16:8 to 17:7 due to school, and lunchtime is at 12pm. It’s going well. I’m hungry, yes, but I wait. I don’t eat any unnecessary things like popcorn, chips (it’s been a long time since I last ate that, but I write it to make it understandable of what I mean), candy, etc. 

I try to cut out carbs, but it’s hard, but I am taking way less than I did before. No white bread. More vegetables and more meat/chicken. I started this last Sunday, and I’m going to weigh myself tomorrow and see. Yes, I‘m struggling with OCD at the same time as it comes to the scale. Before, I checked my weight every time I had eaten something, used the bathroom, drank water, or so. It was an obsession, and I was manic about it. So I struggle with it. 

We’ll see how this first week has done, and I will try more to change my lifestyle.

I have also cheated on my plan to actually cut down another addiction I have, which is Pepsi Max, so I have actually (this makes me laugh that I even have done this) made a plan with the help of ChatGPT, but it’s working! So that’s good.

I write this update actually for myself, but hey, I also share it with you. Like I have written earlier, I’m keeping the blog raw and authentic, so here we go.

I hope you all have a wonderful day and an amazing month!

Yes, I know I blog more… less with days between, but honestly, I have no idea if y’all like that or not.