The day is here and im currently on my fourth sort of transportation. The stress is real and I can honestly say It’s easier to find where to go in Italy than in Stockholm, Sweden.
The alarm went off at 6am as usual. I packed pretty much all my stuff yesterday but had to add some stuff before I left for the bus to go to the train station.
The stress this whole morning/fornoon was insane but now im on my last transportation til the end destination for the weekend.
Bus, train , subway and bus. All this since 8.12am til noon. Insane.
And being a Swedish person going to the capital of Sweden and getting lost everywhere is kind of embarrassing. Even if I asked three different staff for directions to find the correct platforms, etc., I still managed to get lost. It was horribly bad with signs of where the platforms, etc., were.
It’s so bad that I think it’s easier to find in Italy. The bus, the trolley, street navigation, etc. Compared to here. That’s crazy 😅
I just wanted to pop in here and say good morning and tell you how my morning has been. I’m going to try to get some rest because I’m dead tired, and I need to save battery on my phone. I only have 8% and I’m at my end destination in 30 minutes. 🥴
I’ll blog more later. Tell you all about today’s adventure etc
This whole day has been a mix of confusion, stress and panic. But also some dopamine has had its party.
Today has been a roller-coaster of feelings. Stress and panic.
Sent E to school – no problem today! Yay success! ● Got myself ready for meeting and afterwards i went to foodstore and bought some food etc to have with me when I leave tomorrow to go to Norrtälje, Stockholm. Going to stay there over the weekend. ● Dyed my hair in two colors
Remember when I was on the hunt for the perfect present? No? You can find it here > Smooth Criminal . I’m going to M tomorrow and stay the weekend to celebrate her birthday 🙌🏻 I will also drag her around so I can explore and not get lost (I probably wont because I managed to not get lost in Italy) .
I have been packing, charged the batteries to the camera (only bringing one this time), charged my power banks, and charged my headphones. Packed clothes in one bag and packed snacks and Pepsi max in my backpack with the camera gears and the tab. No im not bringing the laptop and school stuff. I need a weekend to relax! Mama is tired! Haha!
I bought a web hotel/hosting yesterday while I was in school and have been struggling to be able to move my whole blog plus domain to that hosting page, but today I had to cancel it due to a lot of stress and problems. Waste of money. Apparently I can’t move the blog to them even though it states that. So I’m stuck here on WordPress. I will talk to someone and see what I can do and which hosting I can use so I get 100% power of my blog.
Tonight while I was relaxing and playing “find it,“ I got a text message. From nowhere! It was from the principal at my school, who wants to have a meeting about my studies—uhm, why? So I have (still have) had panic and stress all night, trying to figure out what is wrong. Have I done something wrong? Am I too quick at finishing assignments and sending them in? I can’t get my head around what’s happening and why.
I have also just dyed my hair. Not all red this time but crises pink on top part of the hair and red on the lengths . So now I have two different colors.
Funny is that i had messaged M saying I have no energy to dye it (which is true) but I decided to do it anyway.
Reflection of feelings and emotions of today, I get stressed very easily and it stay all day. So now im finally trying to calm down so I am in bed, ready for the night (I have washed my hair). Goodnight loves!
Honestly, I have so many i would like to be associated with but the number one brand I’ve always wanted to work with / work for / associated with is actually National Geographic. As a photographer, travel the world, document and capture hidden truth behind everything and everywhere.
To have an opportunity to tell each side their stories, to tell and inspire people.
I know it sounds like an unaccomplishment, or whatever to say, but it has been a lifelong dream for me since I was 14, when I started with photography, but also before that, when looking at their documentaries and magazines at hospitals, home, etc. I have been fantasizing myself as a photographer in Kenya or somewhere else in Africa, taking stunning pictures of animals, visit different villages and document from their perspective, etc. Show the world how their lives are through their eyes, show golden moments, smiles, but overall the reality.
This is not only ofcourse for Africa, its for all over the world.
I know i dream big and always have but thata how iam. A big dreamer but having tons of questions with no answers how to achieve those dreams. No matter how much I try and no matter how much I try to come up with solutions to achieve them.
Wow I am really repeating words. But hopefully you all understand what i meant with this post and I apologize for horrible grammar and spelling.
To answer the daily prompt in short; National Geographic as a photographer.
Downside; I’m just an amateur photographer. Not a professional nor been published anywhere which is a requirement
Sometimes i don’t feel motivated yet I try but can not focus. Today is one of those days.
Goodmorning my beautiful pumpkins. I hope you all are doing good and is having a beautiful day.
I’m currently in school, and we still have class. Now we only work on our assignments, but I cannot focus. I have sent in two assignments, though, but when it came to the third, I lost concentration and focus. I started to write it and have answered some, but now I’m just sitting.
It’s still morning/forenoon (?) here in Sweden, and I can honestly say, today is one of those days where I just want to be home and rest.
Special education 9am – 12pm ●● School Social Work 1pm – 4pm
Hopefully my energy and concentration will come back. The energy when I entered the classroom was crazy; I was listening to AronChupa—I’m an Albatrauz, which is a very catchy song with a lot of energy. So some of the classmates laughed and some danced along when they heard which song it was—maybe I should start bringing speakers? so we all can dance and get more energy? Nah, I would probably get kicked out of school if I did that. lol!
What have I learned so far? Well honestly, nothing because what the assignments are about, I already know so nothing new.
Do you have any crazy moments that have happened to you? I have many moments.
traumatic moment has happened in my hometown this weekend and I am out of words.
Something that wasn’t supposed to happen, tragically happened.
The news of this weekend was something unbelievably tragic! It has made many of us in this area very terrified and some dont want to go outside
This weekend the SOS got a call to a resident in my hometown and that’s when this traumatic incident happened.
The caller to SOS actually ended a life of an ambulance driver. The ambulance driver responded on the call and went to the caller’s home and thats when the ambulance nurse got stabbed to death.
incredibly horrific and we all are in shock.
My friend J arranged a memorial moment for everyone who wanted to come a light a candle. It happened so quickly when the plan of arranging this event til it actually happen. Barely 3 hours. I helped her get the words out about the memorial event and to our surprise, many people actually come to it even when it was a last minute decision.
It’s beautiful to see a whole community come together as one to mourn the loss of a member of the community, but not only that. Mourn the loss of a friend, a family member, a coworker, a hero.
The press/media came to it, and J told them about why she arranged this event. To have a place where everyone can come together and mourn. Send thoughts to everyone. Come together as a community and show that what happened is not ok.
According to the media, there were approximately 200 of us who showed up. That is not everyone, but it was more than we expected. On such short notice as well.
What happened this weekend is not ok. The SOS should have sent backup with the ambulance. The one who ended the paramedic’s life is known as dangerous and the police knows about him.
Only a few days before this tragedy happened. Another event happened, but that time, the person who killed the paramedic chased another paramedic that day with a baseball bat, and now this. So much has been told about this week and this weekend. I am still in massive shock.
I know the person who did it. Since young age. I have been to same school as his brother.
I’m out of words, and seeing and hearing the terror this community now has is horrific. I’m scared even though the police caught him fast, but who knows who gets influenced by this? It’s terrifying to just even think about it.
I understand people who have been interviewed by the news and who have said they are scared to go outside. Some people want to move from here, and some people want to move from apartments to own houses for better protection when this event happened in an apartment complex.
I completely understand them. I’m thankful that I made the decision to move away from my hometown a few years ago. I’m scared to even think of what could have happened to my son and me if we were still living there.
The memorial service was absolutely beautiful, and the church bells rang in the background when we held a quiet minute to mourn the paramedic (I know the gender of the paramedic but want to keep that info outside from here). It was beautiful. And after a few minutes, a rainbow actually showed in the sky. Magical.
This traumatic event or moment has made me feel more grateful and thankful for my life and my family. I have also learned to cherish moments and not get stuck in the digital world but actually make memories with my son. I was already doing that, but after this, it made me more into the thoughts. I don’t know how to explain. I hope you all can understand what I mean with this.
Remember the accident that happend yesterday? Well.. it still hurts really bad. (warning for graphic picture below)
As I wrote in this post, I had an accident at my internship. Luckily no children were harmed or hurt when this happened.
When my son saw that I had a burn mark on my arm, he said “doctor” and made a sign. He went and got a chair to climb up on to get bandages from the cabinet. How sweet!
Unfortunately when I was removing the bandage after a while (it hurted really bad when it was on the burn mark), a piece of skin followed along. Oh my god the pain. I could barely sleep last night til today. Didn’t matter how I laid in the bed or so stuff always accidentally touched the wound.
This morning when I got up, I cleaned it a lot and remembered I had a bandage for surgery wounds in my cleaning closet in the first aid kit after my mother. So after I cleaned the wound some more I smacked it on.
In school I asked the teacher i had when I studied to become a nurse if I could have some more so I could change from the one I have on right now. The sticky part is stuck on the burning area around the mark where the skin came off so it hurts. Luckily I got some from my teacher!
I still can’t believe that this accident happened when I was ironing beads plates. Like.. I didnt even touch the iron when I was fixing to have them let go from the module and boom.. on my arm.
I’m going back to the internship tomorrow and I will not touch any iron or anything. Nope. One burn mark is enough.
All day went fine until the last moment of my day as an intern. Accidents happen, and it was my very first time I did this. How crazy is that?
Hello loves, Today some stuff happened and it hurts. Im currently in bed writing this while listening to white noise with rain and thunder to fall asleep again. I accidentally fell asleep next to my son in his bed.
Anyway, here we go with today at the internship.
The morning ; all went fine. Today I was at my internship at my “normal” time which made me so happy. Came to the internship, greeted everyone and saw two children sit at the small table, playing with play-doh so I joined them. We spoke about shapes, colors, animals, bugs etc. It was really fun! After a little time it was time to set the tables for breakfast so I helped out while the children went and washed their hands.
This morning I tried something I have never tried before and that was (I dont know what it calls on English so I will write on Swedish but (translation like this) after the word) Skinkost (Hamcheese) which is a typical breakfast item in Sweden. It’s soft cheese with pieces of ham in it, inside of a tube (to see picture of what I mean. Click HERE) It was not as horrible as I have always thought but it wasn’t anything for me.
After breakfast, it was activities, so every child got to do what they wanted til it was it was time for lunch. I joined children who sat at the tiny table (they wanted me there) and we made some beads plates and beads jewelry. Super cosy!
oh yeah, the children who got to do what they wanted, got to stay inside (half group) and the other children went outside.
Middle of the day;
Whwn the children who were outside came back inside, my supervisor and I started to set the tables for lunch. Everything went smoothly! Play time after and again, I got called to the tiny table (mind you that while I was sitting there, I also was a “staff” so I went many times to check on the other children) to sit down and do some beads.
I started with a pumpkin. Last week I did that as well but it failed and got dropped so I didn’t bother to fix it again. So today I made a different one. Super cute!
This is the moment when I got a burn mark; While I was ironing the beads plates to melt them together, the iron fell on my arm.
The pain was unbearable. I rushed my arm under ice cold water and now I have a big square burn mark on my arm. How it could become a square one is beyond me, when the iron just hit my arm on one spot (I will show later if I can manage to take a picture where it shows) .
Right now i just removed the bandage of it and it ripped skin off from the burn mark. So now it’s burning again. I think I need to go to the doctor tomorrow and get something. But I do know I must report to my teacher (insurance etc) .
Now it is time for bed and I need to switch side so I dont lay on my arm.
Today’s lesson I will remember (and the burn mark) is that I will neveriron bead plates again. It was my first time, and this happened? No, thank you. But I’m glad it happened to me and not to any of the children. So that is the positive view of this situation.
How would you react if this happened to you? Has it happened to you?
HAPPY MONDAY! I wish you a wonderful and amazing week!
How are you all?? It’s a few days ago since I wrote last time. September 11th. So it’s 4 days ago?
What have I done since the last blog post? Long story short: I had a meeting at the hospital and I have been struggling for hours/days to get the pictures I took on September 10th onto my phone so I could edit them (yes, I use my phone to edit when my laptop is too weak for it), but last night, I managed. So imagine, I have been trying since, like, Friday or something to get the pictures to my phone.
Another reason why I haven’t blogged is because I have had horrible headaches (yes, I have been doing the pictures to phone while having the horrible headaches), and today, the mother bomb of migraines smacked my head.
I messaged my teacher, letting her know that im not coming today and asked if she could tell my other teacher I have today. I could barely walk this morning (5am) because of the migraine, and I thought I was gonna be able to go to school if I stayed up a bit and “wake up” but no. I messaged her and went to bed.
Mind you that no medicines work on my headaches and migraines, and writing this, the migraine is going strong, so I’m struggling extremely much to write this post. (It’s 10.54am right now while writing this and I started this post at 8.30am ish. Been writing since.
I’m going back to bed, sunglasses on, headphones to help kill a little bit noise and black clothes over my head. Yes that’s how I survive ish.. I’m scared to move to be honest. Every step I take is .. ohmygod.
Enough complaining; I just wanted to pop in and let you all know what’s going on and why I have been quiet.
The picture in this post is a picture I took when I was out on a photo walk last Wednesday (10th).
Hopefully i will be able to blog more later today and show you more photos but for now, I’m clocking out for a bit.
See you all later, my pumpkins! And thank you for still checking in, reading, giving me likes and comments. I will answer the comments when I feel better. I promise
I did something I wasn’t allowed to do, but I just had to. I sneaked to take a photo of my shoes after some children had fun and sneaked to add the magnetic letters on my shoes.
What they thought was that I didn’t feel anything, but what they didn’t know was that I felt and knew they were doing it but played along.
I know I broke one rule, but I took this picture way, way, waaaay away from any children, so I was still thinking of where to take it. Also made sure no names were shown or pictures of the children.
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Hello, my beautiful pumpkins! Yes, I can officially call you all my pumpkins because now it’s HALLOWEEN SEASON! Woho!
Today I had my third day at my internship (3 of 5), and no more for this week. The start of the day was chaotic! Oh my god! It started with the alarms on my phone not going off, and I woke up at 06:54am… my bus left at 07:10am, so you all can imagine the stress! But I managed to get myself out to the bus stop. Here comes another thing that made the day more chaotic: the bus was super late! Oh my god. So I messaged the preschool I’m having the internship at, explaining, and it was okay for them, but I apologized!
I do not want to come more late than I already do (with agreement with my supervisor) due to my son and his taxi to school.
I basically ran to the preschool, so I tried to get in closer “time” to when I normally am there. I managed... by five minutes after my normal time. Oh my. It was insane!
My supervisor was home today (reason no need to be added here), so I was with two other teachers, and it was good. It was really good. to see how they worked and their routines!
Today, on my third day,I have been doing bracelets and necklaces made of plastic beads that children in preschool use and make jewelry from. Super cute. ● I have been pretty much all day sitting at a table with some children and made bead jewelry and bead plates. ● One child and I wanted to do a Halloween pumpkin, but they didn’t have a printed-out picture, so I used my phone to find one for inspiration, etc., until one of my supervisors today was available. I asked for their tab and explained. ● I have also been reading books for the kids (nerve-wracking!), and they liked it! Woho! ● We also went to another part of the preschool (they have three departments, or whatever you want to call it) with some children so they/we could play with big blue blocks, and oh boy, how much fun we had!
This was pretty much my day (more happened but can not write about that) and I am happy. I was able to help children (without my supervisors) with getting dressed, to help with food etc.
So now I only have two more days here at the preschool, and I’m honestly really sad about that. The children are wonderful, and the staff is amazing! I hope they all see how much I like it here and how much I try.
Next week, I’m back to school but also have two more days of the internship.
