Sometimes I wonder what kind of class I’m studying.. Sockpuppets??
We had a theme.. Animals and staff in preschool. Make sockpuppets to have a theater to solve conflicts.. I didn’t want to make an adult so I made a weird looking bat. To my defense, the scissors to cut with was awful. If I had my tools that I had at home, it would be alot prettier. Lol. Now it looks.. I don’t know.. But it looks funny!
Sadly my teacher told me to do a sockpuppet you can use it to “talk”.. No. Those gives me creeps. Lol! Luckily, I can do what I want and no need to do anything else. Lol when it comes to crafting will mean.
Hi hello my beautiful souls! My life has been insanely dumb towards me there for I have been quiet. I actually made a recap post yesterday but didn’t post it due to me writing it on my way to school and I actually got “car sick” lol. Bus sick maybe is a better term. I will post it later though.
BUT HOW ARE YOU!? Suck a long time ago (January 22nd I think)
I apologize for my absence. Long story short (longer in an other post) mental health, new medicine, stopped instantly with my old medicine with out “stepping out” on it and a lot more.
Here I am though! Not mentally stable yet but slowly working towards it! One step at the time!
The focus, the stress and the chaos has been real! So glad it’s over for a little bit now.
Hello, my beautiful people! I apologize for not blogging this year (yet), but I have been stressed like a maniac!
Remember when I told you guys that my mental health isn’t so good and that it has been declining? Still low at the moment, but between Christmas and this last Saturday (January 3rd) I have been maniacally stressing through assignments, sending them in, correcting them, chatting with teachers about grades, school, etc. Last night I made, hopefully, the last piece for this semester.
Grades will be decided on January 8, and my next semester starts on January 12th, so I am back to school soon! Crazy!
Let’s appriciate the fact that I have gotten some energy back so I could do some makeup again 🙌🏻
I know that one course with the awful teacher who name-called me and disrespected me a lot this semester is done 🙌🏻 I passed it! Thank God.
Long story short, I passed Kost & Hälsa (Food & Health). I don’t know about the rest, but I had 50 assignments to send in before January 1st. Due to my mental health, I couldn’t make them earlier, but in one week, I made them all. The focus, the discipline, and the live chats I was on (TikTok), talking with friends, made me continue. I finished them! Woho!
So for this semester, I made a promise to myself to never let this happen again! So pray for me and my mental health.
Two more semesters and I a m d o n e finally! I have also made a decision to take a break from school (I have been studying nonstop for ten years) to focus on myself and to work.
So yeah, that has been my reality for the past… weeks? But here I am.
the hustle. the stress. the panic. the warnings. It made my head go loco.
But guess who managed to fix it? I DID!!!! I got a warning from my teacher that I was about to fail some classes, and this is the last week I have to do the last of the assignments. I have been sitting for several days for HOURS and just worked my butt off and sent them in. I now “only” have five left plus a presentation on Monday, and after that I am done for this first semester!
So I am extremely happy and actually surprised, plus in shock of myself. One week and I have sent in… I don’t know how many assignments. Is that my ADHD working? Better under pressure? I have no idea, but I can honestly say—next semester and the last one, I do NOT want to do this again!
So because of this, my head is now all loco! Hopefully I can take a small break this weekend and get some rest for my head but if I know myself.. I won’t.
This year my mental health has really declined so much, but I’m hopeful that next year will be a better year. I started with a new medicine a week ago for my ADHD (I requested it myself), and it has actually helped me get a bit more focus. Sure, I’m still tired, so I also got new sleeping pills that knock me completely out. So I haven’t taken them every day—two pills since last week. I will only take it when E is not home and I have nothing important the day after. Mama needs her sleep! That’s why I’m hopeful! Hopefully it will help me get better.
I have even started to do some makeup which has been superloooong time ago. Last Monday (15th) I had red eyelook and visited my last internship location before school. Let me tell you guys, the look on my kids / students. Oh my. They complimented me so much and that actually made me happy so I have been using makeup twice this week.
So I am a bit hopeful about 2026. I’m working hard to become myself. The bubbly, happy, laughing, goofy Emma.
Thank you everyone for reading. 🤍 As you know, my head is all messed up now, so I apologize that I haven’t answered any comments yet. I will when my head allows me. Even writing this post takes energy. Plus I have been at an education presentation today, and I actually fell asleep for a few seconds, so today is a tired day for me.
Two things in this post. Please answer the list part. If you can ofcourse.
Sometimes it’s all listening and no fun, but also sometimes we have fun. Today was one of those days!
Hello, my loves! I hope you all are doing good today!
Today i have actually been the whole day in school except for the last hour because I had to leave earlier so I could catch the bus so I could get my son in time (problems with the principals at the extra after-school place)
Today in school we had fun project which was to make a presentation where we had in our minds that we are teachers and worked with kids in preschool / day care. Everyone did good and I jumped in with my presentation with other kind of songs that the teacher gave links to.
We had to think about the children with special needs, how we could / would adapt us to them so they could participate as well. Well with everyone, not only special need kids.
We had to include movements, play, and all that stuff. We also had to think of any aids (that sounds so weird) so everyone saw the structure of the activity, etc.
In Sweden (I don’t know how preschool and schools work in other countries), they use visual support to show what will happen, so everyone included that! We also had to keep in mind the sign support.
So what did I do? Well, my son is always listening to songs on YouTube where the singers do signs when singing—not like sign language but using their body and hands to reinforce words they sing. I hope you all understand what I mean.
Anyway, I picked out three songs from that singer/group, and it was so fun. Everyone (almost) participated in the signs and songs. Some didn’t.
After everyone had their presentation of their projects (some worked in groups, and some did the project individually—I did it alone), we continued to listen to children’s music—which you can see in the pictures.
I have started a diet and I was wondering if someone has done the same or maybe a similar or something else.
I have started with the 16:8 diet, and I just started it last Sunday (26th of October 2025), and so far it goes well, but I’m worried. I have googled and checked if it’s ok to do this diet when having type 2 diabetes, which I have, and it says it’s ok. I’m wondering and have questions about it, but no, I can’t contact a doctor about it. I’m still waiting on them to contact me about anotherthing but also about taking blood samples—anyway, I am so confused. What is ok, and what is not ok? What can I eat? What can I drink? How will my blood sugar react and act? Like I said, I have googled around and checked official websites for healthcare, etc., in Sweden, but still, so many questions.
Sometimes i don’t feel motivated yet I try but can not focus. Today is one of those days.
Goodmorning my beautiful pumpkins. I hope you all are doing good and is having a beautiful day.
I’m currently in school, and we still have class. Now we only work on our assignments, but I cannot focus. I have sent in two assignments, though, but when it came to the third, I lost concentration and focus. I started to write it and have answered some, but now I’m just sitting.
It’s still morning/forenoon (?) here in Sweden, and I can honestly say, today is one of those days where I just want to be home and rest.
Special education 9am – 12pm ●● School Social Work 1pm – 4pm
Hopefully my energy and concentration will come back. The energy when I entered the classroom was crazy; I was listening to AronChupa—I’m an Albatrauz, which is a very catchy song with a lot of energy. So some of the classmates laughed and some danced along when they heard which song it was—maybe I should start bringing speakers? so we all can dance and get more energy? Nah, I would probably get kicked out of school if I did that. lol!
What have I learned so far? Well honestly, nothing because what the assignments are about, I already know so nothing new.
Do you have any crazy moments that have happened to you? I have many moments.
I know I didn’t blog yesterday. I am so sorry! It was chaotic at home, but today I will blog.
Hi, hello, my beautiful people! I hope everything to fine with you all!
I have just come home from school (well, kind of; an hour ago), so I’m currently in the bath writing this.
Today in school, the classmates, two teachers, and I have been to the forest. Just because we are studying to be the pre-step preschool teacher, we had to go to the forest today. Just because the teachers go to the forest with children sometimes.
What did we do? We went on a walk and answered questions. Well, you talked with your mate you were paired with about them. Some questions were kind of weird, and I and AK (the classmate) pretty much didn’t know what to answer on some of them. One question was, “Have you been dead and had experience? What do you remember?” Like, how would I know that?
Such a weird question. Oh well, after that walk, the teachers spoke about Buddhism and how they do mandalas, blow them out after prayers, etc. So we had a mission to make our mandalas.Odd, but we did it. I took pictures, but I don’t think people want me to share that, but it’s all good.
After that we had a bit of lunch and talked, and I and S joked with one of our teachers (L). She drank water out of a syrup bottle, and I told S earlier for fun, “She drinks out of a syrup bottle. I bet it’s white syrup,” and I was right! Crazy!
Anyway, the jokes we did with the teacher (she joined in on the jokes) and said that we think it’s something else (vodka), and L laughed and said yes. So we continued and said it was mixed with some water so she wouldn’t get exposed. We all laughed.
So me and S went on with the bottle and L told us some funny stories etc. It was actually a fun moment in the forest (even though I complained a lot! Haha! I dislike being in the forest due to all the bugs etc)
After lunch we had an other activity (we did four activities in total during this class) and that was to paint, either something with forest related or feelings. I tried to make a sunset but that one failed extremely hard. I’m better to paint with pens than watercolors.
Fun part… or maybe not so funny, but S and AK were fine with it. I did some color splatter on my painting, and it accidentally came on AK’s bag and S’s shoes. I apologized so much when we saw it. I was so embarrassed. I even splattered paint on myself, my bag and the bench we sat on. Atleast I participated. Lol!
I had already told my teachers and classmates that I’m a photographer and a blogger, so they had to be prepared that I would take photos. I did. A few. Lol.
I’m not sharing all, just some. Click on the picture to see bigger/full size.
About my fingers (I will explain better in another post): my son has pulled my fingers so much when wanting to show me things or get me to follow him, so I have started to get problems with my fingers. Therefore, the sports tape on them keeps them “straight” and helps with the pain.
The bag in the last picture actually has a text on it, but I removed it due to it not being a kind text. No, I don’t have the text out towards people when I walk with it.
Yes, I have permission to share pictures of my classmates when we had the painting activity. I asked and told them I would cover their faces. They were okay with that except one student. which I respect, so she’s not in any pictures.
The first day of school is officially done. Very small group, but many were missing, so we’ll see if they come. I told the teachers and the class that I am terrified, but when I saw three of my old teachers that we are going to have, it immediately calmed down inside me. Sure, one of the teachers and I don’t get along well, but at least we are on good terms. Hopefully that continues, but we’ll see.
Today’s fashion. Not so special. Did some makeup; it feels so weird to have it on after not having been wearing/using makeup for like, ages!
bag, pen, papers. The whole shebang. Plus my “Stanley Cup” filled with Pepsi Max.
Today we sang a song in class… well, none of us sang, just the teacher. To tell our names. That was weird, but apparently we are going to sing a lot in classes. I do not look forward to that, but what to do?
I told them honestly about my ADHD and how I am, how I can enter a classroom (dancing, etc.) if my ADHD is going crazy. I also told them that I am a talker and I ask a lot of questions. I thought it would be best to tell them right away (I remember I didn’t do that when I studied to be a nurse assistant, and it was horrible when my ADHD kicked in. No one accepted that (and me).
Everyone was chill with that. Some girls said they are just like me, so that felt good. But I could tell I’m the one whose ADHD is over the top. Haha!
I also told them that I am a blogger, so I will take pictures, but no one will be shown. They were also okay with that. Yay!
Before we all went in, we sat down on benches outside, and already there, I opened up and told some but also said to everyone, “COME HERE!” Come and sit here with us,” etc., joked about sitting in front of a bonfire and roasting marshmallows. They laughed and got into a better mood (I think they were nervous as well).
Yeah, so this was my first day. Kinda both calm and also crazy. Hopefully this will go fine, and there will be no bullying or backstabbing that was in the nurse assistant education.
