Last week. The last week of my internship and I have mixed feelings.
This is my fourth week at my internship. It has been good, it has been bad. I have asked a lot of questions, I have learned alot about the “school”, a lot about myself and a lot of decisions.
It has not been all gold and diamonds during these weeks. Stuff has happen that has made me cry. Meetings with my teacher and supervisor (always at every internship so it’s nothing new).
I have eyebrows. I promise. Haha!
Positive about the internship
- The nickname I have gotten from one child; miima and ima (it’s a bit hard for the child to say Emma, so it’s ok)
- The children feel safe around me
- Children are so safe that they fall asleep in my lap (biggest reward ever)
- The laughs between the children and I, all the playful moments, laughter and just.. being silly.
- Got to know the children (on a teacher student level)
Negative about the internship
- I had lumbar after first week at the internship so I couldn’t attend two days that week but struggled myself to the internship the other three days.
- Problems.
- Tears.
- The lifting of the children, in and out of chairs, couch etc.
- Bending down
- Their small children height tables
- Not allowed to have your own fashion style..
What I realized and all the decisions
- Working with children 1-3 years old isn’t for me nor my body.
- I actually don’t want to work at this town’s preschools so I’m gonna apply for work in other towns.
- Do not tell about family situation when it comes to matching times etc (I’ll explain later)
- I will still continue to study to become a preschool teacher, but for first, before becoming a PS teacher, I’ll check around on other work areas that I’ll be allowed to work with when this is over.
Today is the second last day (tomorrow is my last day) and I have honestly mixed feelings. Even though it has been a lot of problems here, it’s the kids I will be missing. I have gotten to know 35 kids and some has become really attached with me (I try really hard to back off from them but they are clinging on me haha!)
Yesterday when I was going home at the end of my “shift” at the internship, sooo many children didn’t want me to go. They hugged me, spoke to me, joked with me and hugged me even more. So this will be the part I will be missing alot. The beautiful connection I have with the children.
Maybe I will work as extra here but I am not sure yet due to what has happened.
A bit of today on next page