Tag: ADHD and back to school

Wow  I actually smashed it! I’m shocked!

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First week of school for this semester and I have already smashed it! On a positive way.

Yes I cussed on the picture, therefor the blurred words. Sorry, but I am so happy!

I have been to school every day this week, and I am honestly proud of myself! Even today, with no sleep (when writing this post, I have been up for 30+ h. I don’t know why I haven’t been able to sleep.) but I smashed it.

This week we have had crafts on one class ~ make something (we had to think preschoolers) that they could tell us their feelings. Well, the class used papertowels rolls, some papers etc.. Me? I made an elephant in “3d”. First time I ever done one and honestly, I don’t like it. It’s not done yet though. It miss facial expressions etc.

I’m removing the black strings when they have helped me give shapes. And yes… It’s embarrassing, but hey, at least I did something else, and my teacher likes it. A lot. Ph, the clay thing next to it… I have also made that, but before holiday break. I didn’t have my tools, so it looks awful. Fun fact: I used to build and make a lot of things in clay and paint them. Roses, animals, statues, etc. I was so detailed on things, but sadly I lost interest in doing it, but I do kinda miss it.

Back to school week

Today I had an exam, and I smashed it. I got an A. 15 out of 17. One box was missed, so if I had answered that one (and not missed it), I would have had 16 out of 17 points instead. But it’s ok. I’m pretty ok with today’s result.

I have also sent assignments/essays to my teacher, so I’m actually a bit ahead of the class. Let’s hope that continues.

Slayed two makeup looks this week!

I am actually shocked! I have had two makeup looks in school this week, and I am so happy and proud of myself that I had that energy to do it. Making myself feel a little bit more alive when out in public. Lol! I will show pictures later, in an other post though 

No sleep, yeah… I’m a walking zombie at the moment.

I couldn’t sleep. I had my usual things (sleeping pills, and no, I’m not ashamed of admitting that). After all, I’m keeping the blog raw and authentic, but they didn’t work. Why? I don’t know. So while I was awake, I studied, watched YouTube, did makeup, packed a bag, etc. Note that I was home alone, so I didn’t wake anyone up. 

I pray to God I will be able to sleep tonight. I am so tired, but my brain is in full speed. Eyes are heavy, body aching. Feels like my body is about to collapse so let’s pray and hope that I will fall asleep tonight.

This weekend will test me if I don’t get any sleep. Studies, laundry, cleaning, cooking, household stuff, son being home (pray that he will be in good mood this weekend) and save the last makeup I have.

The makeup > E has currently ruined / destroyed a massive eyeshadow palette with neon colors that I finally started to use again. It makes me sad but, I’m not mad at him. Sure im said about my palette but im not mad. He is into makeup and that makes me happy, but I do wish he could stop use mine and use his own that I have for him. Yes. I have given my son eyeshadow palette of his own. One from my collection that I haven’t used. Daddy doesn’t approve but hey, im not judging and iam supporting my son to try new things so let’s go!

I’m actually going to wrap this post up for now, but I will be back soon. Much love, my beautiful souls 🤍

I’m terrified, scared, and so lost!

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Good afternoon, my beautiful and amazing people! I hope you all have a wonderful Monday, and good luck in school, at work, or in whatever activity you have this week!


While in school, I get a message on Messenger from M, who tells me that on the news they say that there has been a cyberattack towards many hotels in Italy. Yeah, that sounds… lovely! And due to the fact that I am in school, I haven’t seen it, so she sent a screen recording. NOW I’M SCARED! I called the police and asked what I could do! Unfortunately, they couldn’t do anything or give me suggestions. 🥴

So I called to Italy to the hotel I stayed at and asked them. Of course they said they are 100% protected, but we all know no one is 100% safe. So I have to keep an eye on my bank, etc. So pray for me!

I honestly don’t know what to do! To calm myself down.  I’m scared and terrified!

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Today we had to discuss a children book. We were supposed to have one with us but I forgot mine so thank god there is a library at the school. I went there and borrowed one.

We had to think as a teacher who read for a preschool child. It was honestly hard! Not the reading part but to ask the questions to keep the children involved in discussions. Superhard! We also had to pick out words that we thought the children would ask for etc. Oh god.

But hey, I participated and I did the assignments 🙌🏻 so now when I come home, I will study. I must read and do assignments til next time. 50 pages and long essay 🥴 oh wow.

How are you all!? Please don’t be afraid of talking to me. I don’t bite. I promise 🤭

It’s kind of interesting and repetitive for me in this class because I have done it earlier, and I use this all the time at home, but let’s go.

ADHD Starter Pack: Loudness, Honesty, And A Killer Outfit

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The first day of school is officially done. Very small group, but many were missing, so we’ll see if they come. I told the teachers and the class that I am terrified, but when I saw three of my old teachers that we are going to have, it immediately calmed down inside me. Sure, one of the teachers and I don’t get along well, but at least we are on good terms. Hopefully that continues, but we’ll see.

Today’s fashion. Not so special. Did some makeup; it feels so weird to have it on after not having been wearing/using makeup for like, ages!

bag, pen, papers. The whole shebang. Plus my “Stanley Cup” filled with Pepsi Max.

Today we sang a song in class… well, none of us sang, just the teacher. To tell our names. That was weird, but apparently we are going to sing a lot in classes. I do not look forward to that, but what to do?

I told them honestly about my ADHD and how I am, how I can enter a classroom (dancing, etc.) if my ADHD is going crazy. I also told them that I am a talker and I ask a lot of questions. I thought it would be best to tell them right away (I remember I didn’t do that when I studied to be a nurse assistant, and it was horrible when my ADHD kicked in. No one accepted that (and me).

Everyone was chill with that. Some girls said they are just like me, so that felt good. But I could tell I’m the one whose ADHD is over the top. Haha!

I also told them that I am a blogger, so I will take pictures, but no one will be shown. They were also okay with that. Yay!

Before we all went in, we sat down on benches outside, and already there, I opened up and told some but also said to everyone, “COME HERE!” Come and sit here with us,” etc., joked about sitting in front of a bonfire and roasting marshmallows. They laughed and got into a better mood (I think they were nervous as well).

Yeah, so this was my first day. Kinda both calm and also crazy. Hopefully this will go fine, and there will be no bullying or backstabbing that was in the nurse assistant education.