Goodmorning guys as you might know we were going to Switzerland but the plans got changed yesterday. We actually left home but only got to Gothenburg and due to some reasons we are on our way home again. Honestly, iam very upset about it because I actually was looking forward all the photographies to take, make memories with my son etc. But unfortunately we will stay home and hopefully find something to do instead.
Atleast we got one night at the hotel which was fun. E loved it and slept like a knocked out bull. This morning we had to wake up super super early and im struggling so hard with not fall asleep in the car.
We are currently stuck in carlane due to an accident. Been here for an hour or so. Ambulance helicopter landed on the highway and several ambulances plus police cars has passed so I dont know for how much longer we gonna be stuck in the car lane.
I have no more photos to show at the moment and nothing crazy has really happened so I will end the short post here and I wanna wish you all a fantastic day!
why am I ashamed? because I have wanted to blog for a long long time but havent really had anything to blog about. My life has honestly been very down lately but I feel its getting a bit better.
I have started to “take care” of myself better, put myself first (well.. my son comes first but you get it). I have been distancing myself more from people due to have been surrounded by toxic people. Kinda detoxing from people so I can heal.
I even cut “friends” out from my life due to lies, scam etc. Scams? Lies? Yes, you read it right. Who I thought was my friend used me and manipulated me til I put my foot down and asked my best friend for help.
I even failed school due to my son being sick so much so I missed out ~ ofcourse my son comes first! Don’t get me wrong ~ so I decided to stop attending or what to call, which means I failed school.
I have not picked up my cameras more than maybe twice since I was in Amsterdam. I lost the passion of using my cameras but have used my phone to take photos, which really havent been any “use” to show here on the blog nor Instagram.
I’ve stopped using social medias due to lost intests and feeling pressure to put on makeup, fix the esthetic feelings on photos etc just to please people. I was “like/following” hungry before but I realized .. whats the point? Why chase something that is no need when it comes to people who doesn’t care .. like genuinely cares about my content.. other than have a following of people who really actually care about my stuff my photos, my thoughts etc. For me, that is more important. Having a connection with readers, followers etc.
So right now I’m focusing on myself while also trying to remember how to breathe and how to be alone instead of trying to be surrounded by people the whole time. The next two weeks will be a challenge for me. Switzerland , yes its time to go to Switzerland. I have honestly not been looking forward to it due to three reasons, 1. We are going with an other family that the husband/father I dislike.. like massively dislike. 2. Knowing the reality that im the one who’s gonna be the only parent on the trip while M will have fun (dont get me wrong, I love my son but sometimes I want to kinda.. walk around, breathe and just think by myself) 3. Switzerland is a very beautiful country from what I have googled and heard from people but its not really a country that “speaks” to me to come visit but I’m trying to think positive about it ~ first outside Sweden vacation with my son (even though the responsibilities will be 1000% on me) & new views to see & snap photos of ofcourse.
Today I have actually
✅️ emptied all the memory cards ✅️ Charged batteries to the cameras ✅️ Written a whole new list of our stuff to bring ✅️ Ordered stuff that is needed (medicines etc) ✅️ Packed down my camera gears
So now its only clothes, electronics etc that need to be packed down in the suitcase which I will do tomorrow while son is at school. Also a seperate bag for E’s stuff to have in car to entertain him when we arent at playgrounds on the road. I have also written a list of what to bring for E and the carride . Yes it might sound ridiculous but I take precautions any time instead of his his tantrums (autistic & non verbal) and him being absolutely bored. Remind you that he is just seven years old so he ain’t getting electronics. What I have written on the list is just coloring pens, papers, toys, his stuffed animal, kickbike + helmet, football and few books. Something to keep him a bit occupied when not looking out through the windows which he loves when going on car rides.
Parents with children who travel , is there something I should think of?
This is the very first time we go outside Sweden and actually for a long car ride with E (son) so we dont really know but ofcourse im using my mama feelings but it feels like im missing something or somethings but dont know what.
i will answer your comments! i just saw them! i havent gotten notifications on the jetpack app about comments, likes etc! IAM SO SORRY! I use jetpack when blogging on phone.
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well, almost all green. Atleast it’s no snow in sight which makes me so so happy. I really dislike snow.
Husband worked til 10am, went to sleep and after that we went on a small car ride together with E. Pretty cozy. First ice cream and later we saw a lot of animals.
I like how the house is “focused “
How have your day been? Laundry and folding laundry has been my entire day except when cuddle or playtime with son. Thank God the weekend is finally over and all the week days routines is back in action (we have routines on weekends as well but not as strict as week days).
Preparing with a packing list , ok iam insane. I have already started to write list of what to pack for our vacation. One week and if I know myself, I’m gonna have the big suitcase by myself. Lol!
I apologize for not answering your comments 😭 I’m truly sorry! I will answer them as soon as I have battery in my laptop (I have problems commenting via jetpack app). I am so sorry 😔🌸
Goodmorning everyone! I hope you all are doing good!
It is officially the weekend now! FINALLY! What’s your plans for the weekend?
I’m gonna study, go live on Tiktok (when E is sleeping. Never going live when he is up!) but mainly take care of my son who actually was burning hot yesterday and fell asleep at the kitchen table, so my husband and I managed to get him to bed and there he have been sleeping since 6pm til 7am. Today?? It’s like normal. Like nothing has happened with him. He is full off energy, laughing etc. Normal temperature etc. I wonder what it was that got E to feel that bad. But I’m so glad that he is feeling better but 👀 I will watch him like a hawk 👀
I’m actually thinking of dyeing my hair tonight (if possible due to how my son is and how he sleeps – I don’t dye my hair when he is awake). I really want to go back to neonred hair but must keep it brown so my hair can rest. Luckily I don’t use hair dye with ammonia and all different kind of bad stuff in it and I love it!!
Countdown has started.. School is soon over and our family vacation is coming up.
Unfortunately i have missed too much in school, I have to re-study the course again. It sucks but what to do? My son has been sick a lot lately which has made me missed so many classes of the course so I decided to study it again from the beginning. Apparently it is a normal situation for parents who studies this course so I honestly don’t feel ashamed. Math isn’t really my subject I can master but last time I managed to go to school I almost broke down due to how much I have missed and how far ahead the others are compared to where iam so I at that class restarted my book again, told my teacher and it was fine.
Countdowns; 21 days til course is over (school) for this semester • 52 days til the vacation.
I can finally tell you guys about the vacation. I’m honestly nervous. It is the first time we will ever go on a vacation this way with our son. As you might know , our son has autism 3 and is non-verbal so going to Switzerland by car will be a challenge.
How come Switzerland? We honestly it was not my idea. We are actually going there with an other family who my husband knows and they suggested Switzerland. For me, I have no idea what to do there. Like I have never ever had any thoughts of going there but here we go. So iam in full massive planning maniac mode right now. Reading online about tips, ideas, recommendations etc on how to travel with a child with special needs. It is so hard!
Do you have any ideas? recommendations? What to think of and what not to do, when it comes to travel by car with a child who has special needs?
This is all new to me honestly. I am very nervous to go this far by car with our son but I am planning where to stop and finding places for E to be able to run and play around at on our trip to Switzerland. Play areas, food stops, adventure lands etc.
imagine, we are going through the whole entire Sweden, Through Denmark and through Germany to go to Switzerland. We are also planning on going over to Italy etc for day trip and so if possible. A lot needs to be planned and Iam in full maniac mode of planning to make the trip smooth, fixing passports (done), lists, bags, equipment etc.
Not easy to go anywhere with a special need child . it’s scary but on same time iam excited.
.. ride his kickbike. The pure happiness when we told him that he now could ride on his kickbike because they have brushed the stones away.
We went to a location to let him roam freely on his kickbike ~ ofcourse we kept an eye on him. The laughter, the smiles, the focus and everything. Made my heart jump with joy.
His dad wanted to try the kickbike as well (middle picture) and first E let him but wooh, the speed he had to stop M (dad) from riding it. Lol! Hilarious!
We stopped by a store and bought ice cream as well. It was a fun little family day for a while before M had to go to work for a second time that day.
ofcourse I blurry my son’s face due to privacy and respect for my son.
I can not wait to have many more family days like this in the future. I know now we gonna have soooo many when the spring is finally here and soon summer. We love going on car rides to see the nature, sit outside and have picnics etcetera.
How are you guys? Happy Easter! I know I’m late but we still celebrate Easter in Sweden. Well we don’t celebrate it but many swedes do. Honestly I don’t know how to celebrate Easter except go out and “trick or treat” as you do on Halloween but instead saying “trick or treat” you say “Happy Easter” and receive candy or money. Weird for me and no I’m not taking my son out doing that.
Anyway, let’s continue.
It is official.. Spring is here in Sweden!! The other day as I walked to the bus from school, a little small ladybug flew and sat on my shirt. I noticed it when I was standing at the busstop.
one little bug can make a person happy. It’s officially spring and summer is on its way! So hard to believe it though. Long cold, freezing cold winter is finally over for this time.
I cant wait to the sun, warmth, being able to sunbathing, go for long long walks again. Such a motivation.
I also feel that my mental health is getting a bit better. It is still there but a lot better. Working hard towards recovery is a long way but I have managed to move a few steps forward which makes me so happy. Having bad days is normal though for people and I still have them but I think I’m out of the deepest funk that I have been in. Woho.
Goals for the Spring season; Get better mentally • try lose some weight • work hard in school even though I know im gonna fail this semester but atleast I’m trying • try to become the Emma I use to be ●● oh, start planning for the vacation! So much to plan when traveling with an autistic child.
these passed weeks has been insanely crazy! Exams here and there (school), crazy hours in school (five days a week – 8am to 5pm) plus making time to study at home. Wow crazy! But hopefully it will calm down soon. That’s why i have been so quiet! I have actually wanted to blog MAAAAAAAAAAANY times but honestly, it’s been so crazy, I have barely had time to breath.
I have also been to a concert in Stockholm. Lovely time! Except all the screaming young girls who kinda ruined the concert for me and my husband. Oh well.. which concert? I have for two years had my tickets at home and on March 30th I finally got to scan them. After eight years of waiting since last time I saw them. My beloved Tokio Hotel. Yes i still listen to them. Been listening to them since Devilish (way way waaaay back in time)
Dinner dates & trying new food . One of my goals for this year was to try new things such as new food etc. I have actually been trying this and the other day (last week), husband and I went to an Indian restaurant and I ordered Chicken Butter Masala which was delicious. First time trying. I was so happy that the dish wasn’t so strong (due to my gallbladder) and I could actually enjoy it.
At home after the dinner out, I’ve actually tried making my own at home but I haven’t had all the ingredients at home so I did my own style. THAT ones were spicy. Ohmygod. But E ate it so im happy.
Spring time is finally here but without the warm sun. Rains and snows a lot here but it’s fine. typical April. All though I have seen flowers coming up, the leafs on the trees is starting to wake up to bloom, ladybugs, bumblebees, wasps etc. Hopefully all this will help my mental health. Yeah im trying to be positive. lol!
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Random Question of the day; If you could have any superpower, what would that be?
Answer; Strong or speed. Why strong? so I can do this i have always wanted in my life. but why speed? well imagine if u had the speed as The flash! .
i have very much problems with uploading blogposts so right now iam doing it via internet browser. I have tried for DAYS to get my last blog post up and now finally it is up. So please bare (is that the right word?) with me as i try to figure out what’s going on. Lol.
HI, HELLO MY BEAUTIFUL SOULS! THANK YOU FOR STILL FOLLOW MY BLOG AND CHECK IN. I see you all but I haven’t really had energy to wrige lately here but now iam determined to kick the blog up again! Let’s gooo!
but honestly, holy god how long it is since I blogged last time. I really apologize for that! I’m struggling really hard and have been doing that for a while now – with my mental health but it’s getting better thank god.
I’m still in school but personal life isn’t going so good.
What i have done for the past months since I blogged last is that I have made 3 songs, cut all my hair off, went from neon red hair til dark brown/ black hair. I have also started to do some makeup a bit when I feel I have enough energy for it which is fun! I really do miss wearing makeup, express myself through it etc.
I am also soon done with this course of math and next week I start the next course. I am not looking forward to it to be honest. Math is one of the subjects I struggle with really really much! Luckily I have been talking to the teacher (on the new course) and she has approved that I can attend the math class I am in right now due to my ADHD and lack of concentration in big classes (they are 30 people in the math class and the math class iam in now is like 5 people so more help) . And best part, I can go on both! Hopefully. They are not at same time so from next week.. full day in school – e v e r y d a y . Please save me 😅
I have also been editing photos from the trip in Amsterdam in January which will come up as well.
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So how have you guys been?? So long ago! I am really happy that you are here and i hope you all are doing good! Having an amazing 2025!
Lately, My family and I have been planning for a vacation this summer together with an other family and honestly, I’m looking forward so I can take photos etc but not the destination because it doesn’t call my name but the other family wanted to go there so, let’s go. I will be the first one in my whole family to ever been there. I will tell you all later 🥰 Right now, the location is 🤫 haha!
I will blog as often I can, maybe not many times a day, everyday etc but slowly getting back to the routines! Thank you ♡
