Finally edited the pictures from my cameras- only took a few days for the pictures of the cat but the others I’ve taken? Wow. Too long.
I will not post every pictures here in one post. That will become to much .
Click on them to make them bigger (the last two).
Top will be colors and under will be on black and white of the same pictures. Please let me know which ones you prefer. Color or BW?
I will make more posts with pictures I have taken so stay tuned 🥰 It’s a lot of photographs!
What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?
I have a lot on my bucket list to do. Skydiving and Bungee jumping (or how it spells).
I have always wanted to do it. Always had on my wish list. “Before I turn 30, I will do it!” didn’t do it. “I AM GOING TO DO IT BEFORE I TURN 35!” Did I do it? no 😫 No one wants to do it with me, and I’m terrified to do it alone.
Plus, going bungee jumping could break my neck and make me paralyzed. I have whiplash, and my mom said “NEVER DO THAT!” to a lot of things I want to do, so she scared me as well. Probably was her plan, and I guess it worked. She said more than “never do that,” but there’s no need to write that out.
What else? I can only think of these two for now. How about you?
Why can’t my body work? Why is my body always ruin things? It’s ruining my education and I’m heartbroken.
Lately, my body has begun to go against me. Migraine constantly—sometimes mild but mostly horrible. My body aches, my stomach is upset, etc. I don’t know what’s going on. I have tried to any kind of contact with a doctor but no luck.
My education is suffering, and it’s killing me! I am so far behind; even though I sent assignments in, I’m still falling behind. I have exams on Wednesday. Yet I don’t know if I will be able to attend it due to my body.
I can’t plan anything anymore. If I go out taking pictures, my body is ok, but I can’t go for a long walk from my home. I honestly have no idea what’s going on.
I was supposed to go to school today. I got up this morning, got ready, and boom, my body broke down. I had to message my teachers that I wouldn’t come in. Out of nowhere, my body broke down, and honestly, today I actually wanted to go to school. I was so prepared! So ready! I had packed my new backpack I got from J the other day; I had the outfits done, makeup, etc. Today was a makeup day for me—and boom. The body turned against me.
So I went to bed and fell asleep—again. I had already slept 9h, and now I fell asleep for another3 hours. I’m currently sitting in the living room, listening to the KallmeKris – Crime, Conspiracy, Cults and Murders podcast while writing this.
Even though I can’t go to school today, I will study. At least I’m home, and luckily they send the assignments in the school programs so I can do them at home. I will also try to get energy, etc., to fix stuff around at home.
No, the body breakdown isn’t about energy, etc.; it’s something else. I don’t know what it is, and it scares me. I have never had this before. It’s not my mental health either. It feels so weird. I can’t describe it. What’s going on?
Sorry for a bleh post but I just wanted to update y’all about current situation
A little while ago, one of my blogging friends, Silver Apple Queen, left a comment on my post “Our Woven Selves” to say that when she thought about migraine metaphors, she imagined her migraines as Pablo Picasso paintings. And if you know anything about his abstract art, it’s not hard to see why. “The Weeping […]
Feeling a little Picasso-ish
Such a super interesting post! WOW! I honestly don’t want to spoil anything from this post, but I think you should go over to Linda’s blog and read.
She made my eyes think differently about Picasso and art!
Chaotic week with confusion and stress. A lot of catching up plus having a mental break from Internet a bit but today it ended with a change in my home.
Hey guys! I have not forgotten about you! I have had a short break from the Internet to rest my head plus getting my focus on catching up in school. This week I have had fever, so I was home from school one day but got better, so I went to school the other day and did two exams. One I passed and one I failed.
I have also sent in almost every assignments the teachers has given me. I sat 6 hours one day and did non stop studying to try catch up! I have fallen so far behind in school due to migraines nonstop and chaos in head.
But now I am almost in same speed as the class. So I’m happy. The exam i failed in, I will re-do on Wednesday 22th.
I also did something yesterday which I’m still trying to get used to.
I dyed my hair! It was much needed, and now that the fall is here and soon winter, I wanted a change. Leaving my red hair is always scary for me, but I felt it was time for it, plus my hair needed to rest for a while, and it wouldn’t do that if I had my red hair.
When I have my red hair, I dye it once or twice per week—yes, you read it right. Just to keep my hair the red color I wanted, but lately, I have been planning to change the color to brown.
It was time. My Grey hair was showing (I’ve had Grey hair since I was 11/12 years old) but honestly, it doesn’t bother me but to avoid me getting tempted to dye my hair and ruin it more, I made it brown.
Unfortunately it became too dark, but its something I have to get used to. It will be a challenge to get used to it and honestly, I want to bleach my hair to make it lighter. I love dark hair but not on me 😫 So this will be a long adjustment for me.
Yes I am keeping it raw and authentic in my blog. I’m 35 and have Grey hair 😂
Catsitting a black long haired cat..
Having a cat walking around in my apartment is such a strange feeling and look. I haven’t had any other cat nor any other animals at my place since we had to give Toulula (My first and only cat I ever had) her wings. So having Diesel here, is truly strange but it’s going so good!
Diesel is here because a friend of mine who own Diesel, is going away for a few days. The cat is still a bit shy and not the cat he normally is but hey, it’s a new location. It will take time to adjust.
I’m excited to have E (son) meet the cat Diesel, but also a little bit nervous, because we had a cat (Toulula) before that we had to put down and give her her wings. Hopefully all this will go well. Will introduce them carefully to each other. E is careful with animals, so I honestly shouldn’t have anything to be worried about, but Diesel hasn’t been around kids (we think), so we are going slow!
A black cat with yellow eyes. I mean, how beautiful!? No, I don’t believe in bad luck when it comes to animals. Hihi, I’m not scared.
So that was my Friday and week . Long story short honestly. When it comes to tomorrow, I’m actually just gonna chill and relax. Do some Halloween decorating maybe. Not sure.
I love Halloween, but due to cultural differences in our family, I don’t want to overdo the decorations. Sikhism and my culture.
What have you been putting off doing? Why?
Well… homework. I haven’t done my homework, so I’m very far behind now, but it’s fine. I will do them tonight though! 🙌🏻
There’s something sacred about the way nature refuses to give up.
Even when everything seems still, lifeless, forgotten—life finds a way to return.
It creeps through cracks, breathes through decay, and reminds us that nothing truly ends.
These mushrooms, growing from what was once a mighty tree, are quiet proof of that truth.
We all carry a little of that same wild resilience —
the kind that knows how to rise, even from the ruins.
We Grew From the Ruins
We were never meant to bloom here —
among the broken bark and hollow echoes,
in the damp breath of forgotten seasons.
Yet something ancient stirred beneath the rot,
a whisper of still alive.
No garden blessed us,
no gentle hands tended our roots.
The rain was cold,
the nights were longer than memory itself.
But we rose — quietly, stubbornly,
like a spell cast in the dark.
We fed on what the world discarded,
on silence, on endings,
on the sweet decay of what used to be.
And somehow,
it became enough.
Now we stand —
gold against the grey,
fragile, fearless,
born of ruin but belonging to the wild.
Let them say this place is dead.
We know better.
We have danced with the ghosts,
and we have learned —
how to live again.
(This post was supposed to be uploaded on October 9th – my apologies! I fell asleep while writing the post on October 9th and October 10th was just a weird day)
So many places and so little time. Crazy how days fly by, and I can’t wrap my head around the fact that we are soon in the middle of October! Now that’s crazy!
(October 9th) The day started with a visit to the dentist, where they shaped/filed a tooth for me (fixed the problem I had) and asked a lot of questions about my headaches & migraines. They used a funny-looking “camera scan” to take “photos” of my teeth, etc. Crazy! NO MOLDING WITH THE NASTY PURPLE BLOB STUFF ANYMORE! Yes, I was happy when I didn’t need to do that. lol! It only takes 3 weeks to get the mouth guard done, so in 3 weeks I’m getting it. Nervous but excited! Praying to God that it will help me with my headaches and migraines.
The reason why I’m nervous is because when I was younger, I used to have a mouth guard. Well, one night. I had it on for one night and woke up the next day completely deaf in my right ear. My sister even screamed straight in my ear, but I couldn’t hear anything. This lasted for a month (luckily I got my hearing back!), and ever since then, I’ve been terrified of those. So I am super nervous, almost at the point of being terrified and scared (I know it means the same thing), but I need to try. If this mouth guard works, I’m going to get one I can wear daily as well. Mama needs a break from the pain, and hopefully this works.
“Have you tried this and this medicine?” Yes. I have tried literally every migraine medicine that Sweden has to offer, but it doesn’t work.
If the mouth guard doesn’t work, I don’t know what else to do. I have been looking into Botox, but I’m also terrified of that!
Now let’s move on from the dentist and my scares.
After the dentist I went home. Eat something, and look for the charger to the R10 LP-E17 battery charger. It was gone. Already yesterday. Luckily I had power in my batteries! Hint; they didn’t last for long.
They have shipped my new 3-in-1 “machine,” so hopefully by Tuesday it will be here. My 3-in-1 machine is a new charging station for my batteries, and I can also use and charge it with a power bank! Uh, excuse me? Take all my money!! The charging station will also work as a power bank for my phone! Wait, what!? That’s insane! So technically you can say it’s like 1000i1—not really, but you get it. lol!
No rainboots and ghost sound
Afternoon, I spent with my bestfriend. I actually had school but had meetings that made me not go to school for half an hour. I thought it was pointless. In school they were going to exercise—I don’t know why we would have that, but anyway—so I grabbed Elin (best friend), and we went out for a photowalk. Yup. I brought my cameras so she could use one (my faithful companion Canon 450D—Mufasa), and I used the R10. We took photos of mushrooms, and my goal with the photowalk was to find mushrooms on trees—with happiness I found some!
(October 10th input here; I was gonna convert the files so I could edit them but all off the sudden my memory card was gone and now it’s nowhere to be found!)
Back to October 9th; After the photowalk, we went to our place to have something to eat – Burger for me and pizza for Elin. Just laughing and talking. Having a great time! Time flies when we are together. Reels, jokes, games, gossip etc. Our hang outs are so different. Yes we play board games etc at restaurants (our restaurant) and just having a great time.
I love burned burger bun! Yes I’m weird.
We were supposed to go out and take pictures of the lights, etc., now with the colorful leaves on the ground and trees, but sadly, my batteries had died—all of them. I had 4 extra batteries, and each battery was supposed to last for two hours, but they didn’t. I need to look that up.
So we went to the grocery store. I bought my beloved soda I have been looking for. It’s rare, and I think they are discontinued now after this batch, which makes me so sad. It’s pure childhood memories for me. At least I got one bottle now 🙌🏻
Ghost sounds—this is funny! Me and Elin took a bus to the grocery store, and a man came on the bus as well, but while passing us, HE DID GHOST SOUNDS! I couldn’t stop laughing! Well, I guess he was practicing for trick or treat? Soon Halloween 🎃
What else? Well, I joined Michaela’s very first live on TikTok. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to be on video with her due to it being her first time, and she needed to do 2 more lives with 30 minutes each before I could join her.
Now this was my Thursday and here we go with friday
Friday wasn’t interesting; I went and got my son’s stuff. ordered medicines, picked up the medicines, and went home. Sadly I wanted to go out and have a moment for myself—photography. I didn’t have so much “alone time” after I came home. Batteries were dead, and I also had to go pick up E from school, make dinner, etc.
After d/WordPressied my phone and wanted to transfer the camera files to the phone (my laptop is too weak for Photoshop and Lightroom, so I use my phone when editing), but all of a sudden, the memory card was gone. I had two, but the 256GB card was all gone! Nowhere to be found! So strange!
My blog/WordPress was acting so weird! All of a sudden I had a blog theme design I had no clue where it came from. So many sites had been added, media files etc. (if you read HERE and HERE (after panic!) you will know what I mean with this)
Yeah, so this was my Thursday and Friday. Not so exciting yet panicking moment. No anxiety attack though! Woho! That sh*t was scary and I never wanna experience that ever again.
Some photos I took (not all off them but some)
These was taken with my phone due to the fact I cant show you pictures from my memory card (still missing)
I have cussed, had panic meltdowns and had plenty of stress! I do not what happened to my blog. The design was changed, sites were added, media files etc. So weird!
A friend of mine asked me “what happened to your blog? I see “beauty by Kara” and the panic rushed through my head even more. What you mean “beauty by Kara”? . I was so close to delete the entire blog because of this.
I asked Michaela if she could check and show me how the blog looked for her and it shows normal! So I hope the blog is back to normal and that it doesn’t mess up again.
Yes I changed password incase someone hacked me.
WordPress has started to act weird! My original design is gone and has installed a weird one. im trying to get the original back!
Im sorry
