How are you guys? Happy Easter! I know I’m late but we still celebrate Easter in Sweden. Well we don’t celebrate it but many swedes do. Honestly I don’t know how to celebrate Easter except go out and “trick or treat” as you do on Halloween but instead saying “trick or treat” you say “Happy Easter” and receive candy or money. Weird for me and no I’m not taking my son out doing that.
Anyway, let’s continue.
It is official.. Spring is here in Sweden!! The other day as I walked to the bus from school, a little small ladybug flew and sat on my shirt. I noticed it when I was standing at the busstop.
one little bug can make a person happy. It’s officially spring and summer is on its way! So hard to believe it though. Long cold, freezing cold winter is finally over for this time.
I cant wait to the sun, warmth, being able to sunbathing, go for long long walks again. Such a motivation.
I also feel that my mental health is getting a bit better. It is still there but a lot better. Working hard towards recovery is a long way but I have managed to move a few steps forward which makes me so happy. Having bad days is normal though for people and I still have them but I think I’m out of the deepest funk that I have been in. Woho.
Goals for the Spring season; Get better mentally • try lose some weight • work hard in school even though I know im gonna fail this semester but atleast I’m trying • try to become the Emma I use to be ●● oh, start planning for the vacation! So much to plan when traveling with an autistic child.
Today is not a regular day because it is my child’s birthday! HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY!
Seven years ago I became a mom. Despite what doctors told me. They have always told me to give up on my biggest dream to become a mother. It would never happen due to my PCOS.
and seven years ago i gave birth to my beautiful baby boy. My little handsome man. My little man.
my angel. the love of my life. I can’t believe that I got the gift and blessing to become your mother.
a traumatic pregnancy and a more traumatic experience when giving birth, i will forever be thankful for what I, as a person and my mentally was able to do.
life sure tests us with your diagnosis but man I grow as a mother and as a person everyday thanks to you my love.
October 30th.. already. I still can’t get my mind follow the life time because I can’t believe it’s already November! now that is insane! and only two months ish left of 2024..
It’s very cold outside here in north part of Sweden. The ice is here and minus degree celsius as well. Insane! I’m not ready, not mentally or physically 😪 but here we go.
So i have been quiet in the blog for a few days. I have been super busy with school, meetings, son and his new lifestyle etc. It’s an all mess right now but im still here. I see your comments and love but unfortunately I can not answer them via mobile (it always crash for me when I do) so I’m gonna answer everyone of your comments and love TONIGHT! Looking forward to get connected with you all again 💕 Sorry for all this.
Whats new? Well my son has gotten a new lifestyle we all adjust to (it’s normal with autistic children/people to get medicines, new routines, structures etc) which is taking some time but hopefully it will get better soon. We have noticed a few changes on E since we started. He is more calm, not so much anxious, being extremely hyper etc and he can focus better in school etc which is amazing!
E has also learned to count to 40, sing a long songs with almost perfect pronouncing of words plus sign languages. He has found his love for big Lego again (toys). It is so much better and so much new things E is showing us and we finding out from everyone 💕 so proud!
How have you been?? Something new and exciting or just something positive that has happened in your life since last? 💕 Comment below. Let’s connect 💕💕
it’s been a long long day! Productive but super long. today I actually bought a camera so I can take the photography game to the next level. Well.. maybe better level than the current one.
It is an old model of the camera but it is just one for now til I have relearned the skills, settings etc again and later on can invest in a good camera. So for now it’s a good camera. Almost brand new. Barely used. Objective included but luckily I have some of my old ones left. Now I just need an external adapter SD card reader so I can empty my memory cards (I have like 10 or something). Kinda curious what I have on them 😅
Unfortunately the passion for photography died for me on same time as my parents passed away but slowly I have getting the passion back [there for massive amount of photos on my phone and also some uploaded here and on instagram] which is good because it was a way for me to escape the reality for a while when I had low moments.
So I’m excited to re-do everything I learned, read, tried etc. Luckily I will still have my phone to take photos with as well but gonna try after my skills is back to use camera more. Maybe the quality of photos in the blog gets better? Hm.
My beloved boy. After school. So fascinated of the sign “Din fart” = Your speed. It shows green or red numbers for the speed you are driving. He always stops there and say the letters plus wait a bit for a car to pass by.
Alright today it is.. Monday 21st of October. how insane isn’t that? the October month is soon over. Iam not ready! No no! Let’s keep having October, fall and the beauty for a while. No snow. I dont like snow. lol.
Today i have been doing MASSIVE cleaning at home. I have tossed away so much stuff I can’t even believe it. But most fun part; there is more to declutter and throw away. Mouhaha!
Clean, study, dinner, went and bought the camera, played some games in between the cleaning (pauses) and now iam officially in bed.
Laundry, meetings and school is on the agenda for tomorrow. Hopefully everything will be fine.
So i guess this is goodnight and I apologize that I haven’t blogged today. Kinda crazy day and I’ve helped my sister on game there for I’ve been “playing games”.
What are some things that make you smile?that is actually one hard question. There is so many things but my absolute number one thing that makes me smile is my son.
Pic from our roadtrip we did. Oct 12th 2024
Watching my boy growing up. See how proud he is when he manage to say words that we would understand. How he manage to have cracked the code for talking and saying few words and tries to say full sentences.
What make me smile is watching my son grow up and become independent, which he already is now but not on everything but mostly everything.
My son has autism. To be correct, he has autism 3 (the hardest autism) and is non verbal (can’t talk like us) so you can all understand my smiles and my happiness whenever E has learned to say a new word.
He tries really hard and he has improved so so much. He say or try to say words but he also sign them. If we do not understand him, we guess til he shows us that it was correct. Or if he is impatient he will just grab our hand and show us.
so this is one thing that will forever make me smile.. My beloved son 💕
I have found a fun way for my son to entertain himself while I do the laundry. Practice writing numbers and letters. Yes it is the calender but he writes on months that has passed already. Not the current month or months that is coming up. I am so proud of him for how much he has developed since he started the school he attends now. When he was in preschool, they isolated him from other children so he never learned how to be a friend, wait for his turn etc. He never learned how to write etc so I stepped up and taught him. So now since he started in school he has developed so much – he say the letters and he counts to 29 but struggle saying 30. It has happened so fast but I am so proud and happy. In school they are practicing writing the letters but he already knew them. Also counting the numbers is something he has been taught at home so he were impressing the teachers at school when he counted so they decide to keep teach him more numbers so they and we are working on that.
E is not attending a regular school. He is attending a special need school because he has autism but I am forever thankful for the teachers and how much they have taught him on one year. He is in second grade right now and I can’t believe that he is that big!
So a simple way to entertain a child while doing laundry(or any other activity) so they learn numbers and letters -> Let them write in a calender with passed months! My son loves it and said over and over again (he did four months) “one more!”. He wanted to write them all!
Goodmorning my beautiful butterflies 🦋 I hope you all are doing good!
been awake for god knows how many hours (5am yesterday) and I can honestly say that iam beat! I am so tired but hey, life as a parent right?
So as you have read, yesterday my son had to do some surgery in his mouth. Which was scary as hell but it all went fine. They had to remove two teeths on top of it all. No complications. No problems.
They told me (and husband) to go for a walk so we wouldn’t stress out, and have all kinds of emotions so we did. I didn’t want to go at first but tried to tell myself “E is in good hands. You can trust them” etc. So my husband and I decided to go to McDonald’s to grab breakfast. We hadn’t eaten anything just because E wasn’t allowed. And why should we eat when he can’t? na na thats not how we roll in our family.
afterwards, we went back to the hospital and sat down. Waited on the call that now they are done but nothing. So I went and got E’s medicines while waiting.
Unfortunately M (husband) had to go to work. He was only allowed to start one hour later than his normal schedule which was super kind of them. So I was left alone .. Didn’t know what to do but I knew I would get my mind into dark and bad thoughts if I sat there waiting so I went out. For a walk. Just trying to breathe.. After a while I went back.. guys if you only know how many times my mind played tricks on me while I was out. The mindtricks that the phone rang so I rushed to grab it etc but no calls. Until I sat down for a few minutes.. The phone actually rang! I dropped everything (literally.. I was drinking a bit soda when they rang) and almost cried when they said that they were done and that E is now at the observation room.
I almost raaaaaan and got myself injured on the way 😂 yes.. it’s true. But I came there, looking around after E and there he was.. My strong strong boy. The relief when the doctors told me the highlights of the surgery. I was so proud of E.
It took 2 hours at the observation for him to wake up. During that time I tried to keep myself occupied so i didnt stare at the monitors etc. I played games, edited photos, tried not to fall asleep..
30 minutes after he woke up, got the needles, Tuesday etc removed, we were on our way home. Only 15 minutes after waking up he walked like nothing happened. It was insane.
yeah a little bit of a roller-coaster journey yesterday. A lot of feelings I never knew I could feel but I am glad that this procedure is done and I can relax for real now..
Update; He is in no pain what so ever and seems to not remember a thing which is good. He have noticed that two teeths are gone because he cant stop check/feel the spots. He found glue after heart monitor stickers on his body . Nothing much. Tried to scratch it off but I gave him wet wipes instead.
conclusion; E is stronger than I am 😅 I am truly impressed and proud over E how good he handled and dealt with this whole situation 👏🏻
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Now im gonna get ready to go to the hospital in an other town. E is at school and M is still at work (24h shift). Shower, dry my hair, makeup, find a good outfit and put the shades on. Let’s go!
I will blog more later. Toodles my butterflies 🦋 🦋
Finally we are back home. Now I can relax for real. Just waiting on a phone call from the doctor to tell me how it went etc.
When E woke up he didn’t want to stay and wanted to go right away. Even though he was affected of the anesthesia. After he woke up he was back to normal after 15 minutes so I decided we didn’t need to call my sister-in-law. We didn’t need the ride.
Ice cream from the nurse and almost 50cl water when he woke up.
I am truly super proud of E because he did so good.
This was the scariest thing I have ever been through.
Yeah I just wanted to update you all and now I’m gonna relax for real. Edit some photographs I have taken so I can upload them here. 🥰
Goodmorning everyone! My morning started at 5 am. Lovely. Right now I’m currently at the hospital with my son. Waiting on him to wake up after surgery. I can honestly say, I almost had meltdowns because of all my worries for this.
luckily everything went fine. No complications or what so ever. Thank God! Note; that this is the very first time I’ve been experiencing things like this. So of course I am scared.
I’m gonna try relax now for a bit. I’m so tired and now when they told me everything went fine I can relax and boom. I became more tired. Lol.
