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What is up?

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“catch-up-with-my-life” post of what has happened lately. It has been chaotic, it has been insanely tiring and extremely stressful, plus exhausting

Hello my

beautiful darlings 🩷

I hope you all are good, and I want to apologize for having been so quiet lately. I still struggle with the extreme tiredness that I mentioned earlier, but I thought I would write a small post about what has happened in my life due to me being a lifestyle blogger, etc.

Internship

It was super fun, super chill, and best of all—I had almost no migraine during that week. I got to meet a bunch of amazing kids (only kids in years 3 & 4). The kids in years 1 & 2 had internships that week, and we all clicked so well with each other. We clicked so well that I spoke to my supervisor about a feeling that I had that I had become more friends with the kids instead of being a student and an adult, so we agreed for me to back away a bit, so I did. It was a really sad moment, but I just had to. We still had a super sweet connection towards each other.

All the students didn’t want me to leave after that week, so they started to talk about having a protest 😂 just to keep me there, super sweet. They said I was the best intern they had, and that felt so good! God, I was so happy when they told me. So I asked my supervisor for contact information for the boss/principal of my internship, and I got it. So I have applied to become a student assistant there, so let’s hope! I really loved being there.

Meeting with the principal

Well, chaos. You can read about it HERE

Back to school…  for.. uhm..

Yeah, I went back to school. I was about to skip court due to me being so far behind in school, but I got permission to leave to go to the court. In total I was in school/class for 20 minutes before I had to leave—this was Monday. Tuesday I also went to school—almost the whole day. Last class we were doing group work, so I and the people decided to go home due to us having each topic to do research on. Mine is criminality and adapting back to society.

Court days

full off lies & it makes me mad

I did sneak when taking this picture to send my sister and show her where I was when it was time for court #1

I cannot talk about what the court trials were about (two different cases), but I can say that I am innocent, and so is the person that this trial is towards. All lies, etc. Even with bulletproof proofs.

Library & studies

I went to the library on my day off to study and send assignments.  I managed to send in, like, 8 of 22 or something—so that was a success.  Also had a meeting there—which went well.

Due to my diet/weight loss journey, I decided to have a jar with carrots, a small container with yellow & red paprika, and a super tiny container with chips of parsnips.

E is officially a big boy

E has had a bed that we rented from the hospital (for special needs children. If I find a picture, I will post it later), which is a safety bed for E when he was most active in sleep, and the other day, M and I decided it was time for E to have a big boy bed, so we went and bought it plus a headboard (next picture). 120x200cm bed. We also bought all new bedsheets and bed sets for our big boy.

We could have taken a plain one, but I wanted some texture on E’s headboard, so we went with this one. It was only €50 in price difference.

Total spent on the bed, sheets, set & headboard: €720, and the bed has a 15-year warranty, which is amazing!

Day lunch date (cheat day)

Day date with my best friend. Of course we had lunch and caught up on life (plus I told her a bit about the courts)

Applied for two jobs

That will hopefully give me the jobs so I can develop more as a student assistant, etc.

We’ll see what happens.  I’m crossing my fingers, though. 

Weightloss journey

Well, honestly, it doesn’t go so well right now due to stress and mental health, but I’m still working on it but not as actively as I would. Gonna get back to it though. 

Thesis in social work

My subject; Crime and reintegration into society with a focus on NPF.

Interview a criminal and make a thesis (is that the word?) of a minimum of 8 pages. Due: 2025.12.16. #feelingprettystressedout

This was a short “catch-up-with-my-life” post. A lot more has happened, but not interesting stuff, and some stuff worth mentioning here. Let’s just hope that the new week is getting better and that I can at least have a decent ending to the year.

Chaotic with court, stress with school and sleepless nights

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I promise I haven’t forgotten about you all!! Life is chaotic right now!

Hi loves! I have been trying to blog several times but always have fallen asleep while doing it. My internship was super good and I loved every second of it.

Im trying to catch up in school (only two weeks left) so that makes me stress plus I have been to court one day this week and now on my way to the second one for this week. Hopefully no more court after this.

No I am just going to witness in the stand. Im not involved in it what so ever and I cant talk more about it. But let me just say, the whole things are freaking ridiculous!

I will try blog more later today. I will make a catch-up-with-my-life post!

Thank you so much for checking in here. I see you all! 🩷

Internship, day to grow

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I am still alive but it has been so much going on behind the scenes of the blog but here I am right now!

Hi guys! I hope you all have a wonderful week! The weekend has been crazy for me and preparing for the internship I have through the school / education has been a roller coaster.

This week, I have internship at special need school (mild special need children) and honestly, I was terrified when I started yesterday. But everything is going great! Even my supervisor tells me that! How crazy isn’t that?

Yesterday at the internship

I hung around with class 3 & 4 on their classes. To my surprise and shock, the classes were around 45 minutes up to an hour at the time. I’m used to 3 – 4 hour classes! So my surprise when my supervisor told me this.

Today, at the internship (25/11-25)

It started good. Some of the classnhas building on schedule and some of the classes has something else.

It was so hard to draw the start. Which took me so long! Hopefully tomorrow we can drill the holes along this board.

Paint all over me.

We’ll see how it goes tomorrow.

I have tried writing so im falling asleep!

I’ll blog more. Goodnight!

Sunlight, old train station and cheat dat

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Other than the meeting today, I had a good day. Photography, hanging out, walks, sunlight, sunsets, and cold.

Today I actually slept in. Well, I got E to the bus and later went to sleep instead of going to school—the reason was so I wouldn’t get mad before the meeting with the principal. Sleeping in is something I never get to do due to having a child of school age but also with special needs.

Cheating D a y

After the meeting, E and I went to our regular place to eat. I was mad, and I was hungry. Hadn’t eaten anything plus PMS on that (yup, still keeping my blog raw and authentic) so we left to PizzaHuset (PizzaHouse) and I ordered my burger plate and E her pizza (pic below).

I use an app to enter everything I eat daily to keep track of the calories I eat in a day—no, I don’t trust the app 100%, but it gives a “good” view of the food. Anyway, after I entered the food in the category “dinner,” I wasn’t so surprised by the calorie intake, at the same time as I was surprised. I mean, I know it was a lot of calories, but I thought it would be way more than the app showed, so that is the second thing that surprised me—it wasn’t as high in caloripoints as I thought. Odd.

I have used the app for a little bit over a week (I think), and according to the app, I don’t eat my maximum intake of calories per day—which is good—but I don’t think I’m supposed to eat almost 3k calories a day if I’m going to lose weight, so, yeah.

Dinner – burned burger and fries  Perfect combo

beautiful sunset

I want to buy this building, fix it up, and make it a home for me and my son. Well, move it first, of course. Away from the train tracks.

Click on the pictures to view them in bigger size

Tomorrow (friday) I’m starting again with my lifestyle changes  I’m proud of myself so far to be able to have changed lifestyle a bit, to keep going and traing, smaller plates etc.

Wish me luck!

Good Night! My eyes are getting heavy!

Again, I turn out to be the bad guy in the situations, which makes me very…

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No matter what I do, no matter what I say… they always make me look like the bad guy in the situations. Even when I want them to know that it was not ok and I didn’t want to be disrespected like I was.
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Disrespected ● angry ● I give up

Hello my loves. I know I have been quiet for a few days (3 days, except the daily prompts) and reason is; I haven’t felt well. I feel much better (except for what was said today) so I will try come back ASAP.

I did three exams on Wednesday and I passed them. Shocking because I didn’t study but yay!

Today I had the meeting . . . . the meeting i wish never happened. If you guys remember from this post (clickable link) you know why I was in the meeting.

The meeting went horribly wrong. According to the principal, I am a liar. She laughed at me when I spoke, so I told her not to laugh at me because that makes me mad, which it actually did. The teachers denied it, and the principal is protecting their asses – which I also said to the principal.

So it’s like, the teachers can say and do whatever they want towards students and people, but when a student/person defends themselves or takes action in their own hands (in my case, writing to the principal AND the teacher, letting them know that I am not accepting and not ok with what was said and done), it results in them being disrespected by powers (the powers are the principal and teachers).

Of course I got mad (and I know they read my blog HEEEEEEEEY!!!!!! I’m pissed at you!) and got into a defense mode. I know what she said (and so does everyone else in the class but is too damn scared to stand up) and what happened. I left the class and haven’t been to her class since then—yup, not one time. So we’ll see if I go back there after the internship next week.

Right now, this will eat me inside because I want to explode on both the teachers and questioning them so much but I’ll be the bigger person and take it to the next step. 🙌🏻 Which step? Oh, I will tell you all later. No it’s not a threat though 🤷 So they can’t do anything about that. Oops.

So, whatever I say or do, I am always the bad guy according to people. Even when the truth comes out and someone is standing up against the person who does wrong. They are so scared of what could happen.

That was the meeting. It was longer but no bother to write it, it would only make me mad again.

Trust?

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Do you trust your instincts?

It depends on the situation but mostly yes. When it comes to my son – always! When it comes to myself – depends .

Such a weird thought, though. Never something I think about, but when it comes to children—always, no matter what age. Mama instinct comes out as well. At least for me.

If I get a feeling something is off/wrong/don’t do it, I stop them or whatever. Me? Well, let me just say, I don’t wait for a green light.

Favorite month? Hm

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What’s your favorite month of the year? Why?

Honestly, I don’t have one. I only like Halloween and the fall so picking a month of those is impossible.

Move in the shadows

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“Keep moving in the
shadows babe’s”
– Charlotte Dobre

That is exactly what I am doing. I’m just moving in the shadows. Not telling anyone around me my plans, ideas, thoughts, etc. (those I haven’t told don’t know about my blog), and honestly, it feels so good. Not having to worry about judgments, arguments, etc.

Keeping my weight loss journey, the education, and my mental health away from certain people makes life so much easier. Knowing how they would behave, react, laugh, be mean, etc., wouldn’t help me keep going.

Today I have actually studied! Yes, it’s true! I have even sent in three assignments! Now I only need to do the rest of the assignments, and I will be on the same level as the class. Oh, who am I? Haha!

Today has also been an energy-stealing-upsetting-mode day. This came a few hours after I studied. 

I have cried. I became insecure about stuff, and I couldn’t shake it off. Millions of thoughts, tears, music and and screams inside my head. When I saw E’s face when opening the door and he said, “Hello, friend,” everything went away for a bit. I’m in bed, and it has come back, but this time, I’ll fight it.

REGRETS

I shouldn’t have eaten that sausage now before bed, or in general. Having toast (grain bread) and a slice of sausage on the toast made the calorie scale go above the limit for the day. Like, excuse me? Apparently, the bread I’m eating isn’t healthy either! Even though it says it is and the ingredients are healthy, I guess I was wrong. Also, my breakfast All-Bran flakes aren’t healthy either… So I need to Google what safe foods are and what’s OK to eat while on a weight loss journey.

It’s Monday, and I’m just a few days in on the new weight loss path I’m on, so I’m not worried. I will try harder and learn more about nutrition, healthy and unhealthy foods, hidden sugars, etc., so I can achieve my goals. 

Weight loss journey talk here

Today I tried “normal” food—hash browns—for dinner, and knowing how much fat is in them and knowing how the pan would look after they had been in the oven, I wasn’t so tempted to eat them, but I had to eat. My blood sugar was getting low. Seeing how the pan looked like after they were done, I couldn’t eat more than three of them. I made five each (15 in total) due to them not being big (they are small).

Today in list

  • power nap- 1h
  • studied for 3h
  • sent 3 assignments to my teachers
  • dinner > 3 hash browns w/ lingonberry jam (which I regret)
  • “Hello friend!” makes me smile every time
  • regrets
  • insecurities & tears

I apologize for writing this post all jumpy on different subjects. My brain isn’t functioning right now due to a massive headache, so I’m actually just going to try to get some sleep before E comes to my bed.

Goodnight pumpkins!

Another down and let’s get started!

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“Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t.” – Steve Maraboli.

My son is currently listening to “Nu kör vi igång,” meaning “Let’s get started” in Swedish, while playing his drums, and honestly, the song is right! Though the song is about something else, that line, “Let’s get started,” and “Let’s keep going” is such a powerful lines, and that will help me keep going to achieve my goals.

Today, I have made my decision to only step on the scale once a week. Just to try not to become a maniac with the obsession to go on the scale again several times a day like I normally do but keep an eye on the weight so I don’t gain it all and keep the motivation up.

So I will step on the scale every Sunday to see what I have “to work with” the week after. 

The scale shows -4 kg since Monday. Yes, I dropped another kilogram since yesterday, so let’s keep going!

  • -4 kg (2025.11.16)
  • Keep going on the goals
  • Today I will make hash browns for E and I will have a frozen dinner ( Chicken Butter Masala, home made) and some veggies.

Today’s to-do: clean the apartment ● fold laundry ● hang up clothes ● sort old clothes out from E’s closet that he has outgrown ● maybe meal prep (if time)

The second challenge

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Trying so hard to not fall for the temptations of unhealthy stuff is really difficult.

I promise I won’t only write about the weightloss journey but I will share updates, progress etc. So I can go back to my blog and read if I lose the motivations one day

Grocery shopping,

the second challenge

I went grocery shopping today. I was missing a few ingredients for today’s dinner (changed plans), and while being at the store, I struggled so much. They had freshly baked cinnamon buns, and those are also my weakness. I took a picture and sent it to my friend and wrote, “I am tempted.” She said, “Nope!” so I answered her, “I walked away,” and I am proud of myself! I did NOT buy any! It’s not often I buy them, but today it was awful how they triggered me, but I managed to resist the temptations! Plus points to me!

Grocery list;

  • 2 bags of onions
  • 2 bags of carrots
  • 1 parsnips
  • 1 2kg bag of potatoes
  • Some bananas
  • One healthy yogurt natural
  • Lemon mayonnaise (the only unhealthy thing)
  • 1 bag of frozen vegetables
  • 1 package of button mushrooms
  • Pepsi Max (I will continue being strict with myself)

I changed my mind on today’s dinner and I am actually (be shocked! because I am!) craving fish! That has never happened before.

Today’s dinner

(the changed plan)

Fried raw potatoes (I will use measuring cup when making) ● fish ● vegetables ● button mushrooms ● onions ● boiled carrots ● maybe a bit of the parsnip as well

Yes I know i eat button mushrooms a lot but hey, atleast they are healthy!

I have also started to eat carrots as night snacks before bed; that’s why I bought more carrots. I have honestly made a 180 on my lifestyle when it comes to food. Maybe I should say… 300°, not fully 360° yet.

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