Good morning, my beautiful people! I hope you all have a wonderful day! I’m currently in school and learning a lot.Very interesting class, to be honest. Sure, I know a lot of what the teacher is teaching but its always good to get a refresh and also learn something new. 🙌🏻
We are reading/listening about children and people with special needs in school but also in society. It’s interesting for me when I have a son with special needs and see from this perspective of school/my education, how to adapt the environment for children and people with the special needs.
Yes, I will write about the school, etc., so I can have a sort of diary of school I can go back to and read. ☺️
Listening to this while being super tired and ADHD out of control is chaotic, haha!
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The classmates & teacher has the link to my blog so now I’m nervous 😅 pretty scary but it’s fine 🤗
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I will blog more later and no I have not forgotten to write the recipe. I’m working on it to make the post easy readable.
The tiredness smacked me in the head from nowhere so I wasn’t able to tell and explain so I thought I would do it today. If you don’t know which post I mean, this is the one .
Free food—when we went to J’s place, we passed a booth where they gave out free burgers and drinks! That’s crazy! It was delicious and cozy. So many people were around, and apparently they also fed the homeless people earlier. 🥺 That makes me so happy.
Cleaning my life and removing toxic people ; this one was actually very hard and difficult for me. I had a “friend” who were lashing out on me after I wrote the word “nevermind”. The “friend” said a lot of bs so I decided to remove that person out of my life. I don’t need the negativity and toxicness in my life so bye bye.
Studies; I went to town, asked J if she wanted to hang out and study together. Which was kind of a mistake 😅 We did some studying but we spoke most about life and stuff.
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Later I will post my own recipe of Chicken Butter Masala, SO GOOD! and history of why I made my own version.
Studies, free food, cleaning My life and remove toxic people out of my life.
Today has been “productive” for me. It’s Saturday, which means deep cleaning at my home, but sadly today was not a good day for that. My back and shoulder hurt, but I still did a lot. 🙌🏻
coffee-themed filter on the pictures
I went to the town to hang out with J and study. It didn’t go well, but I did something. After a while we went to a bookstore and bought some papers and pens so I can continue with drawing.
Super duper short post. I wanted to write a lot more here, but my eyes are is getting really heavy, so I will explain the cleaning out of people and reasons why later.
I was hurt. I was angry. I left the class but came back. I sat in the back behind everyone instead of up front.
Yesterday I didn’t blog due to me trying to calm down the whole day. It was insane how mad I was.
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Yes, I have my legs on a table in the back. I have informed my teacher that it’s a way for me to calm down in situations that occur and my mind can’t handle, so I have permission to do it. Even if people think it’s rude, it helps me. Weird, I know, but that’s how I discovered what works when anger takes over and I want to participate in stuff but need distractions.
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It was the first class of the day.Food and health (yeah, it really is a class in that with this education), and we had a discussion in the whole class about obesity, diseases, what’s true and false, etc.
During the discussion in class, she mentioned that you only become overweight if you eat badly and don’t exercise, which I objected to and corrected her and said it’s also genetic and that you can gain weight from different kinds of medicines. Nope, I was wrong! And then she said the same about diabetes, which I was correcting her on again, and said, “It’s also genetic,“ which again, I was wrong about.
Then she started to say a lot of (well, she had already said a lot of bs) untrustworthy information about diets, etc. She also said that, and I quote, “Doctors, nurses, and dieticians are wrong with everything they say about food and health.” Like, excuse me!?
So again, I corrected her, and another classmate corrected her as well, which made the teacher call us LIARS! And that’s when I got mad.
Not only did she literally hold speeches with lies and think the entire class was stupid and not have any form of knowledge about food and health, but she called me (and J) liars!
Note that both J and I pretty much grew up in hospitals, have been in contact with many doctors, nurses, and dieticians personally and together with my mom when she had throat cancer… and I am also a nurse assistant, while this teacher has no healthcare education but works out a lot.
Honestly, how can a teacher who is supposed to encourage a student to learn and participate just call a student a liar? What happens when a teacher tears a student down? Why do some teachers do that?
Me, myself and I are angry and hurt. I honestly don’t wanna participate in her class anymore but sadly I must
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Second class for the day.. health pedagogy (is that the word?)
Finally, no more of that BS-talking teacher. It was time to have one of my new favorite teachers, M! I rarely say it but I actually enjoy having class when she holds the classes.
We spoke about what’s healthy for me and what’s healthy for preschool children. It was super interesting, and we had to think hard on this one. Unfortunately the teacher was quick on erasing everything off the whiteboard, but luckily I wrote it down for the children.
Activities outside, fruit moments, singing, dancing, etc., were up on the board, but also feeling valued, being seen & heard, etc. It was stuff that was obvious but also other stuff you normally don’t think of, they happen naturally.
It was a good class and I stayed the entire class/lesson.
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TODAY WE HAD A CONVERSATION with M about the class where the teacher called us a liar. Now we gonna have a meeting, the two of us (J and I) and the teachers M and L.
I told M that I’m not accepting that L called me a liar and that I will continue to go to her class but not engage in discussions, etc. Just to avoid anotherclass like this and cause problems in the class between me and the classmates.
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Now this rant is over for this time. Sorry for being so negative in this post, but I really need to clear my head.
Sent two assignments in. Went shopping. Studied more. Made dinner. E is sleeping, and I am in bed.
Hello my beautiful sunflowers 🌻 Today have been a kinda hard day for me.
I have studied pretty much all day today. Sent two assignments in plus two that was not an assignment yet. How? From the books. The teacher writes the questions that are in the books as assignments, so I did that. “Wow, it goes fast,” was a comment from my teacher. Funny! So I explained to her why I do so much now. In case my son gets the flu/gets sick, I won’t fall behind so much. Which is true, though.
I wrote yesterday about the microwave and how it flashed, so it died. It broke my routine for the night, but luckily for me! WE WENT SHOPPING! Woho! We bought a new microwave today so my nightly popcorn can happen again! Happy Emma!
Why nightly popcorn? I don’t know, honestly. It started this winter that I ate popcorn every night and now can’t stop. Lol! So last night was a bit hard for me 😅 but today I got my popcorn! 🍿 🍿
While buying the microwave, I decided to buy a new pencil case. Yes, I bought one. Even though I have one but I cant find it now. I have a gut feeling at I have accidentally thrown it away. Not sure though but oh well. I need a pencil case for the studies so, I bought one. $9 😮💨 So expensive! My other pencil case is bought for $3. That’s triple the amount. Insane!
I also “ran” around in the store, looking for stuff and on stuff. I was all over. Even I would have complained if I saw how I was walking around, etc. Lol! No, no one complained but I got a lot of looks, lol.
Afterwards we went to another store where I bought two new frying pans, a bottle of shower cream, and 😏 an 8-pack of Pepsi Max. Hehe. The addiction is real, people. Horrible, but it’s there. I have found a way, though, to minimize my drinking during the days (no, I’m not talking about alcohol. Only Pepsi Max), and that is I don’t drink out of glasses where I can see how much I have in it. I use my water bottle metallic thermos and drink out of. Works so well! Since I did that, I have not been drinking as I used to! So lets continue and see if I hopefully can minimize it 60%(or more).
So now my bag is packed with laptop, books, papers, pencil case, extra books that I’m selling tomorrow and tomorrow morning I will pack down chargers for my phone, laptop and headphones.
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Today’s dinner is simple yet so yummy. Even E said repeatedly, “Yum!” “So good!” “Good!” “Yummy.” That made me so happy! He is very selective when it comes to food but thanks to the fact that we have been challenging him a lot when it comes to food, he can eat almost anything. Except soup,which I understand him.
Maybe it doesn’t look so yummy in the picture, but it was delicious for the tummy.
Minced meat with red onions & cooking cream. Gluten free pasta for me (I’m gonna try gluten free to see if I’m allergic to gluten) and some vegetables 🥰
Yes, it looks A LOT on the plate but I could only eat at most half. 🥴 Too much, but honestly, it’s not a lot on the plate. Oh well.
So im off to bed now. The alarm goes off in five hours 🥴 and honestly, I’m hungry!
Thursday schedule in school;
9am – 12am Food and health
12am/pm to 1pm Lunch
1pm – 4pm Health pedagogy (is that even the correct word? According to Google translate it is)
What’s going on with this week!? It’s only the second day of this week and I kinda honestly wanna throw the towel in.
First I had to fix everything about the hacking of hotels in Italy (yes, I tried to call to block my personal number, but they didn’t pick up, so I’m going to try again tomorrow). and now the microwave died. Like what!?
I was studying and wanted to have my popcorn as I normally have daily at night time and when I pressed start, it said boom and a flash happened and now its dead. I thought it was the wall/electrical-outlet, so I took the microwave and moved it to the stove to connect it to the outlet next to the stove but nada. It’s dead! So now I’m annoyed over that.
I know it’s a silly thing to get annoyed over when the microwave was like 20 years old or so. Yes, I used to for ages. But the most annoying thing is that my nightly routine is off now until I can buy a new one. Hopefully soon. 🤞🏻 My son also eats popcorn daily as a snack (no salt or butter popcorn for him) and now what!? Oh god.
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TRIGGER WARNING! ● Drawing of a spider below!
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Today at the last class, my head had officially clocked out. I couldn’t concentrate, so while the teacher was teaching, I sat and did some drawing. Horrible drawing, but still. No, no, I was listening and participated in discussions, answering questions, etc., but I had to “zoom out,” which means I do drawing or writing while listening to help me listen and hear what people, in this case, the teacher, are saying.
Luckily, the teacher we had was the same teacher as I had when I studied to become a nurse assistant so she knows when I “zoom out”.
I tried to draw a sunset and a “Loch Ness monster,” but that didn’t go well, so I started to draw this spider. Unfortunately I failed on it in many places, but it’s the first time I’ve drawn a spider like this, so I’m still learning. 🤭 We’ll see what I will draw later on.
I actually want to learn how to draw 3D pictures. That would be so cool so maybe I should pick up on that. Learn how to draw, just for fun! Maybe it will be a new hobby of mine? A new way for me to calm down and de-stress? Who knows. Lol!
Tomorrow I have the day off from school but I will meet up a classmate J at the coffee shop to sit and study. How fun! Well, fun to hang out but the study part.. not so sure. Lol!
I have actually sent two assignments that were given to us (and it’s just the second day of school with classes) and one assignment the class hasn’t gotten yet. I finished the first chapters in the books due to the fact I know I have to study a lot so I can “finish” earlier or know what to say in case my son gets sick and I won’t miss out on anything.
It’s fall, and usually it means; snuffy (stuffed) noses, fevers, asthma attacks, and knockouts (sleep). My son gets sick a lot during fall, winter, and spring. During summers it’s better. Weird, but oh well.
Hopefully he wont be affected this season so I have time to study alot so I have time to “take off” from school but if it happens, it happens. Full focus on him and school comes later.
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It’s currently 9pm, and I am in the bath. Migraine and tensions in my jaws. Done studying for today, but like I wrote earlier, going to the town to study tomorrow.
Good afternoon, my beautiful and amazing people! I hope you all have a wonderful Monday, and good luck in school, at work, or in whatever activity you have this week!
While in school, I get a message on Messenger from M, who tells me that on the news they say that there has been a cyberattack towards many hotels in Italy. Yeah, that sounds… lovely! And due to the fact that I am in school, I haven’t seen it, so she sent a screen recording. NOW I’M SCARED! I called the police and asked what I could do! Unfortunately, they couldn’t do anything or give me suggestions. 🥴
So I called to Italy to the hotel I stayed at and asked them. Of course they said they are 100% protected, but we all know no one is 100% safe. So I have to keep an eye on my bank, etc. So pray for me!
I honestly don’t know what to do! To calm myself down. I’m scared and terrified!
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Today we had to discuss a children book. We were supposed to have one with us but I forgot mine so thank god there is a library at the school. I went there and borrowed one.
We had to think as a teacher who read for a preschool child. It was honestly hard! Not the reading part but to ask the questions to keep the children involved in discussions. Superhard! We also had to pick out words that we thought the children would ask for etc. Oh god.
But hey, I participated and I did the assignments 🙌🏻 so now when I come home, I will study. I must read and do assignments til next time. 50 pages and long essay 🥴 oh wow.
How are you all!? Please don’t be afraid of talking to me. I don’t bite. I promise 🤭
It’s kind of interesting and repetitive for me in this class because I have done it earlier, and I use this all the time at home, but let’s go.
Getting up in a few hours. I am tired, but I cannot sleep. I honestly hate when I have these kinds of nights. I am super tired in my head and want to sleep, but my body isn’t. I listen to my playlists as always, every night, but no. Nothing works.
Heavy rain, thunder, and smatter on the windows sound on my playlist. 8 hours each “song,” but nothing. So now I changed to regular music to see if I can fall asleep. Yes, regular music makes me fall asleep as well.
Right now, one of my mom’s favorite songs is playing. This song gives me mixed feelings. Both sadness and also happiness. We used to sing this song out loud while I was “dancing” around. Nick Borgen: We are all the winners.
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The alarm goes off in 4 hours, and I guess it will be an all-nighter. When I can’t sleep, I stay awake all night, but how it will go in school, we’ll see. It wouldn’t be my first time, though, doing an all-nighter and going to school the next day.
Oh well, the bag is packed, so I only need to get ready, and we’ll see if I manage to get some energy to put some makeup on so I don’t look like a dead zombie… at least not more than I already do. Haha!
I know I blame my ADHD a lot but this time, it was really ADHD MOMENT .
Home alone, ADHD plus boredom =
✨️ CATASTROPHE ✨️
Hello guys! It’s currently night here, and I am in bed. The bonnet (is that the word? Sorry if I’m wrong!) is on due to I don’t want to ruin my pillows. Why? Weeeeeeeell, I kinda did something.
Round 1: the dye didn’t take so well on the hair, as you can see in the picture. So of course, me being unhappy with it, went for a round two. Hopefully it will be better, or else I have to go for a round three one day, but now I’m going to let my hair rest a bit before I jump into the hair mask and make it more red. Baby steps.
I was bored, okay? 😅 And unfortunately I didn’t have brown hair dye at home, but I did have my bulk/stacked-up red hair conditioner.Yes, this is not real hair dye; it’s conditioner, a sort of hair mask I mixed with normal conditioner.
Tomorrow is the actualFIRST day of school, and I am not as nervous and terrified as I was last week. Sure, all the classmates didn’t attend, but some did.
Originally we were apparently supposed to be 25 students, but many dropped out before it started, so we are only 10 or 11 students. So let’s see how this goes.
Tomorrow the classes start for real. No more “first week, get to know each other” stuff. I actually thought and still think it was unnecessary. With all the child games, etc., but oh well. Now it’s time to really get into it. Feelings? Mixed feelings, honestly. It’s not about the classmates and class itself but the lessons.
When I studied to become the nurse assistant, I was waaay ahead of the game and classmates. When they were doing exams, etc., like two months into the education, I asked teachers for more assignments. I wanted to be a long way ahead of everyone, but in the second semester, my mental health went downhill, and honestly, I’m terrified that it will happen again.
Due to the fact that I’m working on my mental health to turn it around to actually become better, I’m scared. Not to get better but for the school and my struggles. Imagine being in a school with 3K+ teenagers, bullying, bad mental health, etc. The pressure to actually pass this is massive pressure on me. It will be a challenge, but hey, if I managed to fix the nurse assistant education at the same school and actually passed… I will fix this education as well. 🤞🏻 Wish me luck, though. Lol!
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I’m off to bed, so goodnight, my lovely people, and remember to subscribe to my blog to follow my new chapter in life. Exciting but also scary.
Me, my mind, and ADHD are sometimes not a good combo, but I got a laugh out of it. In desperate times come desperate methods.
A salad must have corn in it, right? or am I wrong?
Cucumber without the peel, bell pepper, cheese, apples, iceberg salad, pineapple, pasta, and either ham or chicken plus cheese. That’s my go-to when it comes to salad. I forgot red onion this time, but it’s fine. Cucumber without peel is because I have gallstones, and I am not in the mood to go to the emergency room today. Unfortunately I had no pineapple at home and forgot to buy it.
I went to the store today to buy ingredients to make exactly that dish for dinner. I had cheese at home, so I didn’t need to buy that.
While cutting, cleaning, and boiling the stuff, I remembered that I bought corn in a can (yes, I know it’s not so good and a lot of sugar but, hey, sometimes I want that lol!). So I looked for the can opener but its nowhere to be found.
So guess what I did instead 😂 It’s hilarious and I honestly got a few really good laughs.
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